Wishful

I wish it had
turned out different -
trust...

I wish that the dreams
had become reality -
love...

I wish that when I saw
my visions they were true -
happiness...

Now I have suspicion,
searching for the real truth -
tears...

desperately trying to find out
if I'm wasting my youth -
lies...

what is left of it...
what is within me -
courage...

the truth
might set me on the path -
free...

I never wanted it that way
I had innocence on that day -
hope...

that is now eluded...
unfortunately buried and not -
resurrected...

because when vows
aren't cherished they are gone -
dead.