Sweet solitude
allows to grow -
the dreams inside
that you know...
Give your life
purpose and hope -
a simple prayer
will help you cope...
with anything
too heavy to bear -
God is always
waiting there...
to comfort you
and lead with love -
to all those dreams
you're dreaming of.
I can only
ever agree -
to be the best
that I can be...
To treat others
with dignity -
and hope they do
the same for me...
Always keep
a separate pace -
and always know
time and place...
Go the distance
handle with care -
enjoy the journey
getting there.
Trust and believe
it will all be alright -
put in the effort
put up the fight...
you will get out
what you put in -
as long as you try
you will always win!
Here it is
another day -
I wasn't sure
it would be this way...
It was a bite
it was a sting -
what anxiety
it did bring...
Still I awoke
one more time -
to give thanks
and to shine...
with a purpose
to find out -
what this life
is all about.
They really did it
shot it through the air -
it's like nothing else
was left standing there...
Everything I had
taken away from me -
all that I worked for
stolen underhandedly...
Abused and unhinged
lied to in my face -
certain memories
will never be erased...
Longing to escape
the past tragedy -
while searching ahead
somewhat frantically.
I just know
I'm letting go -
of this tidal wave
to and fro...
You don't give
a fuck about me -
I give that back
quite freely...
I don't care
a fuck about you -
where you go
or what you do...
I hope I won't
see you again -
you're no lover
or a friend...
You're a waste
of precious time -
You won't get
anymore of mine!
Feeling hopeless
feeling down -
like a failure
all around...
Seems it's all
a waste of time -
walking this
confusing line...
Nothing is ever
good enough -
for anybody
which is tough...
Still I do
always try -
I have to wonder
exactly why.
It is way
beyond gone -
as all have now
scattered on...
All the memories
had to go -
with strangers that
I used to know...
Some pictures hold
a fading few -
happy things
I used to do...
As I smile
through faded tears -
while passing through
these passing years.
Don't shop at the
candy shop -
no no no don't
shop till you drop...
It might look
quite shiny -
but keep on going
before you might be...
The next victim
with a big white smile -
snorting what
can last for a mile...
But there you are
with a purple toe -
and the tag
lets everyone know...
You checked out
and it's over now -
don't even listen
to the kitten meow.
I can't feel
at least not now -
this world has gone
insane somehow...
Hope in the future
is gone with the wind -
I suppose normal
will not be again...
What is there to gain
in this debauchery -
who wants to live
anything but free...
I don't get it
and I never will -
everyone needs
to fucking chill!
It's quiet
and relaxing -
after so much movement...
I'm thankful
for my blessings -
and all that I have...
Nothing is more
important -
than who we love...
and who loves you...
because I do...
love you!
It was a beautiful view,
crystal clear
relaxing,
better things ahead...
Until the dirt
was tossed,
and tossed
and tossed again...
So thick
the view was gone,
too muddy to climb
too thick to shovel,
so dirty
it wasn't worth it anymore.
Down about
being worn out -
not much to be
happy about...
Another day
to drizzle away -
I hang my head
and quietly pray...
That this will end
very soon -
there is no hope
nor is no room...
Nothing matters
nothing is alive -
the world is gone
and all has died.
Raggedy doors
concrete floors -
blood drips down...
Dilated
then stimulated -
no one is around...
running through
is nothing new -
as I race towards the sign...
that let me know
where to go -
and find this life of mine.
Sending it
quietly -
I wish I had
you with me...
You are so
far away -
I miss you
and yesterday...
The dance
was so surreal -
I never knew
I could feel...
I still don't
even know -
why it all
had to go.
Welled up
from the inside -
no need to try
no need to hide...
Just floating
passing it by -
no need to think
no need to cry...
It's always been
this messed up way -
since that time
and long ago day...
What I'd give
to actually know -
why I ever even
said hello.
He drove country roads
with a big wide smile -
in a pick up truck
for mile after mile...
with his loving wife
right by his side -
they always enjoyed
a nice country drive...
He lived his life
as a Godly man -
as a loving husband
and a football fan...
He always had a joke
and a silly grin -
he was a happy dad
and a faithful friend...
He strummed guitar
to John Denver songs -
while those around
would laugh and sing along...
He wore a cowboy hat
with jeans and boots -
he knew how to survive
he knew how to shoot...
He loved his mom
and the Lord above -
he was an example
of strength and love..
Though it is hard
and broke hearts into -
there was nothing left
anyone could do...
wanting to go home
was his dying wish -
so we bid farewell
to his heavenly bliss.
Until we meet again...
Uncle Doug 1955-2021
