Another Chapter

Well hell
I did it again -
I surely hope
this is a win win...

Walking into
a brand new year -
with hope in my eyes
and a new career...

I will look back
and read this through -
praying this was
the right thing to do.

Forgive

The power of forgiveness -
to look beyond oneself...

To know that -

We all fail -
We all fall -
We all let someone down...

Especially ourselves.

It's alright at any time -
to turn it around.

When someone asks forgiveness of me -
I will give it freely...

because I can only hope to be -

forgiven.

Gates

I used to
but I so don't now -
I have to make it
happen somehow...

The glass is
half empty indeed -
I'm pouring it out
to be freed...

Of what I don't
want anymore -
there's my keys
and there's the door.

Apathy

Little crystal ball -
I can't see it at all...

All that I know -
is that I felt it go...

It turned quite numb -
how could I be so dumb...

I wish I saw ahead -
all that is now dead.

Pavement

Go away
you nice dressed man -
I am happy
where I am...

Although it seemed
it might be fun -
Something made me
turn and run...

Why would I
get chained again -
When I have come
so far from then...

Why should I
start all a new -
when I thought
those times were through.

Chilled

If only I could care
for all the love I share...

On the loud banging chime
and complete waste of time...

I didn't even find
what I wanted to be mine...

Yet, there I was -
wasting time just because...

I just keep calm and cool
when dealing with a fool.

The Clock

Oh I do
wish for you -
all your karma
that is due...

As you live
so it shall be -
from that fate
you are not free...

So look up
when it lands -
because it is
on demand...

And you know
that you owe -
all of that
which you sow.

Pros & Cons

Decisions
decisions -
I need direction
and wisdom...

What comes next
I don't know -
should I stay
or should I go...

to a new adventure
that awaits me -
would I be
just as happy...

as I am with
my space and time -
another new choice
that is all mine.

The Floor

Invisible
not really seen -
when she was
they were mean...

Which prompted her
to run away -
her only hope
was to pray...

Believing
that somehow -
things would be
better now...

But she saw
they never were -
as they just wanted
to criticize her.

Dusk Till Dawn

I'm not sure
why I try -
as I watch
the days go bye...

Knowing where
I want to be -
wondering if
it will be me...

That can go
where I want to -
and leave this in
my rear view.

Foggy Lights

You have
already learned -
how to know
how to discern...

all the angry
and the mean -
there is nothing that
they can bring...

To your life
to make it good -
so do what
you know you should...

Just like all
the times before -
build your walls
and lock your door.

Shovels

She dug a hole
to hide away -
she couldn't face
the same new day...

She didn't have
a word to say -
so she found a place
where she will stay.

Mist

Release it all
as you go with the flow -

The more you live
the more you know -

What needs to come
and what needs to go...

Hold your feelings near
and your thoughts so...

You only water
what needs to grow.

Courtyard Shadows

It's quiet as the sun
shines in -
staring out the window
once again...

Only I can change
what I need to do -
only I can make
my goals come true...

So once again I vow
to be a better me -
forgiving myself
and let it all just be.

Drop Kick

I won't anymore
I've done all that before...

Now I will decide
to open up the door...

As I see the exit
and follow it through...

I won't anymore
there is no me and you.

JW

I had a great time
with the top down -
just me and my husband
riding around...

In my brand new toy
that he bought me -
my black BMW convertible
so I can ride free...

I wouldn't trade him
for anything or anyone -
he lets me be me
and likes to have fun...

More vacations coming
and we'll work hard too -
to my sweet wonderful husband
I so love you!!!

Ice Cold

Regrets stab
like twisted metal
in the back...

Running away
from the thoughts
when they attack...

Learning wisdom
through the lies
and truth they lack...

Realizing 
they were only ever
talking smack.

Pathways

I wonder how
it would have been -

if I did things differently...

Said no instead of yes,
Said yes instead of no -

left when I wanted to go...

If I never wasted time
on people or places -

that were a poor decision...

Would I be near water?
Would I be near mountains?

Would I be what I dreamed?

I guess there's never
any way to know

how things might have been.

Dimes and Pennies

At the time I thought
I was broken -
Chewed up, spit out,
a used token...

Then I glued myself
back together -
Utilizing my strengths
I've had forever...

It's my life and my right
to be happy -
I don't care what anyone
might think of me...

I know I'm kicking ass
and doing well -
and so glad I'm no longer
in their hell.

Just Fly

I'm thankful
it is all behind me -
the cocoon is broken
I was set free...

Now things are
how they should be -
and I couldn't be
any more happy!