Armor

Be careful who
you give your all too -
because you will find
they just used you...

Taking whatever
they can get -
and then move on
and totally forget...

anything about
that you thought was true -
because they already got
your all from you.

Weeds

What can you do?
Walk around and mope?
Throw it all way -
or hold onto hope...

So what if they're gone
so what if it's done -
It wasn't the right time
or wasn't the one...

Quit hanging on
to what makes you sad -
and move to the future
leaving out the bad.

Orange

Try as I might
I still feel -
with all the regrets
I try to heal...

With all I've learned
and all I've done -
I sit alone
and stare at the sun...

Wishing somehow
that ball of fire -
would clench my soul
and my desire...

Hair blowing
the sunroof open wide -
with a smile on my face
as I ride...

far away
no care at all -
time for a road trip
into fall.

Wish I Could

I really don't want
to be on this planet anymore -
In fact, I can't figure out
why I'm stuck her for...

Rude people
mean faces -
I long to leave
and totally erase...

my carbon footprint
my life at all -
I hate it
and can't wait to fall...

and be dead
and done with it -
I really no longer
give a shit!!

Future?

What do I want?
Do I even know?
Should I stay...
or should I go...

Do I even care
what else is out there -
Just moving along
with the wind and a prayer...

I used to think
there was something for me -
I used to have dreams
I was able to see...

A future so bright
I would wish on a star -
I had so many hopes
that I actually went far...

from an underage mother
with my sweet child in tow -
Yet, I still believed
how could I know...

That it would never happen
I would never have a place -
Maybe my future
is not in the rat race.

Sigh

Oh well...
what the hell -
never can say
and never can tell...

Moving on
because it's gone -
Don't rest unless
you stay too long...

Lessons learned
they're surely earned -
because mistakes
leave quite the burn...

I miss those days
before the craze -
but now it's just
a worn out haze.

Bye

Watch it yourself
do it yourself -
I'm not here
for your self help...

No more giving
any of my time -
to any person
who treats me unkind...

I'm not on this earth
to cater to you -
I'll do what the hell
I want  to do...

I really couldn't care
if I see you again -
I'm not your servant
I'm not your friend...

Enjoy yourself
and have a nice day -
when people use me
I just walk away.

Box

Streets named after them
and still dead -
a life of hopes and dreams
were all ahead...

It doesn't matter the amount
in the account -
because every single person
will amount...

to ashes to ashes
and dust to dust -
no longer in the world
to live with us...

and one day too
there will be -
dust upon ourselves
for eternity.

Transparent

It's two inches tall
and doesn't matter at all -
Just invisible visions
that no one ever saw...

Existing for no reason
a different day a different season -
Only to be used
until the next one is leaving...

Regrets mesmerized
left alone to be despised -
Just one more hanging head
using a smile for a disguise.

Sunrise

I took a little drive
down memory lane -
reminding me who I am
and I am the same...

Finally getting back
to what is actually real -
of where I should be
and what I should feel...

Sometimes disappointments
get in the way -
that's when you learn
to rely on the day...

when you knew who you were
without a doubt -
and embrace the you
that you can't live without.

Empty

It doesn't matter at all
that four letter word -
so much has been emptied
it has been absurd...

Could be a good
million miles away -
none of it matters
at all anyway...

No lesson to learn
no memory to cherish -
just another time
to crash, burn and perish...

the hole was quite deep
just like what will follow -
an emptied out shell
with everything hollow.

Puppies

This is where
I want to be -
surrounded by love
and the sweet furry...

away from the world
away from the mess -
this is what I want
I must confess...

all to myself
with all that I love -
this is the life
that I'm dreaming of.

Fences

Questioning it all
while I'm here -
through another day
through another year...

Another saddened state
as confusion abides -
left with the only choice
but take cover and hide...

Will there ever be
peace within the soul -
maybe eventually
when I finally go.

Window

Living on the edge
of more tears -
one more time
after all these years...

I played the fool
and said my worst fear -
now it's just quiet
as I see things clear...

Never again reveal
and avoid all I can -
keeping it to myself
is now the plan.

Again

Churn -
as the burn
stings you in the heart...

Sick -
in the mind
as you fall apart...

Once -
more again
feeling it's the end...

Quiet -
in my mind
full of regrets this time.

Never Again

Upwards and onwards
no more you -
don't even know
what I went through...

Finally leaving you
far in the past -
where I can breath
free at last...

Don't know why
I cared so much -
for someone out of reach
someone out of touch...

Someone who's not real
just full of air -
no longer will I see you
no  longer do I care.

Illusion

No need to care
if it's not there -
and wasting time
is never fair...

You have just one life
don't add more strife -
as you try each day
with all your might...

sometimes it's best
to let it rest -
leave it behind
and never confess...

how it hurt
and made you cry -
sometimes you have
to say goodbye.

Candles

Why does the spark go
and the excitement die -
when you have moved on
and have no reason to try...

I guess the light always
ends up blowing out -
leaving you to wonder
what it was all about...

and what there is left
to look forward to -
as you watch your life go on
and continue to pass you.

$3.75

I honestly don't
know what to say -
I sort of lost my head
somewhere along the way...

The sun used to set
straight into my eyes -
wearing the blue smock
down to my thighs...

I was so fast
they always said -
hot dogs and popcorn
I can't believe you're dead...

I wondered about you
through all the years -
elbow grease
and broken beers...

and then I left
I guess I quit -
and never saw you again
that was it...

But boy I'm thinking
of the sun in my eyes -
I hope you are at peace
and yes. I cried.

The Cross

It's been so many years
since that wooden pew -
and watching the sunrise
service with you...

Hearing you sing out
the old rugged cross -
that stood for him saving
all souls that are lost...

Easter in Ida with
sweet baskets you gave -
eating apple jacks cereal
and the good food you made...

The house smelled so fresh
just like your life -
such a wonderful mother
such a faithful wife...

You always told me
that I was special to you -
Yet, you were my rock
that helped me pull through...

Sickness and chicken pox,
surgery and my son -
I was blessed by God
that you were the one...

He gave to me
to hear about him -
on this holy day
I think about then...

You lived by the good book
and sang I'll fly away -
now you're at his throne
and that's where you'll stay.


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