Bye

Watch it yourself
do it yourself -
I'm not here
for your self help...

No more giving
any of my time -
to any person
who treats me unkind...

I'm not on this earth
to cater to you -
I'll do what the hell
I want  to do...

I really couldn't care
if I see you again -
I'm not your servant
I'm not your friend...

Enjoy yourself
and have a nice day -
when people use me
I just walk away.

Box

Streets named after them
and still dead -
a life of hopes and dreams
were all ahead...

It doesn't matter the amount
in the account -
because every single person
will amount...

to ashes to ashes
and dust to dust -
no longer in the world
to live with us...

and one day too
there will be -
dust upon ourselves
for eternity.

Transparent

It's two inches tall
and doesn't matter at all -
Just invisible visions
that no one ever saw...

Existing for no reason
a different day a different season -
Only to be used
until the next one is leaving...

Regrets mesmerized
left alone to be despised -
Just one more hanging head
using a smile for a disguise.

Sunrise

I took a little drive
down memory lane -
reminding me who I am
and I am the same...

Finally getting back
to what is actually real -
of where I should be
and what I should feel...

Sometimes disappointments
get in the way -
that's when you learn
to rely on the day...

when you knew who you were
without a doubt -
and embrace the you
that you can't live without.

Empty

It doesn't matter at all
that four letter word -
so much has been emptied
it has been absurd...

Could be a good
million miles away -
none of it matters
at all anyway...

No lesson to learn
no memory to cherish -
just another time
to crash, burn and perish...

the hole was quite deep
just like what will follow -
an emptied out shell
with everything hollow.

Puppies

This is where
I want to be -
surrounded by love
and the sweet furry...

away from the world
away from the mess -
this is what I want
I must confess...

all to myself
with all that I love -
this is the life
that I'm dreaming of.

Fences

Questioning it all
while I'm here -
through another day
through another year...

Another saddened state
as confusion abides -
left with the only choice
but take cover and hide...

Will there ever be
peace within the soul -
maybe eventually
when I finally go.

Window

Living on the edge
of more tears -
one more time
after all these years...

I played the fool
and said my worst fear -
now it's just quiet
as I see things clear...

Never again reveal
and avoid all I can -
keeping it to myself
is now the plan.

Again

Churn -
as the burn
stings you in the heart...

Sick -
in the mind
as you fall apart...

Once -
more again
feeling it's the end...

Quiet -
in my mind
full of regrets this time.

Never Again

Upwards and onwards
no more you -
don't even know
what I went through...

Finally leaving you
far in the past -
where I can breath
free at last...

Don't know why
I cared so much -
for someone out of reach
someone out of touch...

Someone who's not real
just full of air -
no longer will I see you
no  longer do I care.

Illusion

No need to care
if it's not there -
and wasting time
is never fair...

You have just one life
don't add more strife -
as you try each day
with all your might...

sometimes it's best
to let it rest -
leave it behind
and never confess...

how it hurt
and made you cry -
sometimes you have
to say goodbye.

Candles

Why does the spark go
and the excitement die -
when you have moved on
and have no reason to try...

I guess the light always
ends up blowing out -
leaving you to wonder
what it was all about...

and what there is left
to look forward to -
as you watch your life go on
and continue to pass you.

$3.75

I honestly don't
know what to say -
I sort of lost my head
somewhere along the way...

The sun used to set
straight into my eyes -
wearing the blue smock
down to my thighs...

I was so fast
they always said -
hot dogs and popcorn
I can't believe you're dead...

I wondered about you
through all the years -
elbow grease
and broken beers...

and then I left
I guess I quit -
and never saw you again
that was it...

But boy I'm thinking
of the sun in my eyes -
I hope you are at peace
and yes. I cried.

The Cross

It's been so many years
since that wooden pew -
and watching the sunrise
service with you...

Hearing you sing out
the old rugged cross -
that stood for him saving
all souls that are lost...

Easter in Ida with
sweet baskets you gave -
eating apple jacks cereal
and the good food you made...

The house smelled so fresh
just like your life -
such a wonderful mother
such a faithful wife...

You always told me
that I was special to you -
Yet, you were my rock
that helped me pull through...

Sickness and chicken pox,
surgery and my son -
I was blessed by God
that you were the one...

He gave to me
to hear about him -
on this holy day
I think about then...

You lived by the good book
and sang I'll fly away -
now you're at his throne
and that's where you'll stay.


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Refresh

Is there anything out there
that plants the seeds of hope -
that makes the day worthwhile
and it easier to cope...

with day to day distractions
that only stress you out -
and all of the monotony
you'd prefer to live without...

Is there anywhere out there
where the sun kisses your face -
and you sit in total happiness
knowing it is your place...

to finally unwind
and feel happiness that's true -
healing your mind and soul
beneath a sky of blue.

Clear

Delete -
Complete
Never again deceit...

Ran -
Away
no more will I play...

Hide -
Avoid
no more paranoid...

Done -
Gone
time to move it on.

Rush Hour

Walking through
the waterfall -
just wanna run away
and forget it all...

Leave this mess
in my back seat -
and only meet
who I want to meet...

Don't want to waste
more time on stress -
Don't want to live
in this concrete mess...

If I had a horse
I'd ride away -
and leave behind
this steel highway.

Cold

I can feel the frozen chill
all the way to here -
the silence is quite loud,
the message is quite clear...

The truth may have been muffled
yet it made it's way through -
because fake never lasts
and once again it's true...

When the mask is removed
and you stare straight in the eyes -
you see all you have missed
and you learn from all the lies.

Pillows

I dreamed so vivid
I believed it was true -
As I closed my eyes
I believed in you...

Only to awaken
and see the blinding sun -
Peeping through my window
as the night is done...

It was just a vision
just a somber sweet dream -
I wipe my eyes dry
because dreams don't mean a thing...

They're just foggy thoughts
not based in anything true -
just mental mind games
that your conscience travels too.

Hidden

Sometimes -
life takes you by the hand...
and leads you to places
you will never understand...

holding tight
as the ship glides full speed...
letting go
as the wind guides your feet,,,

What will happen now?
What will be perceived?
What will come and go?
What will be freed?

Living in
a chaotic war -
No one is sure
what anything is meant for...

as they spy
their eyes upon your door -
it is all temporary
and that is for sure.