I Got This

It's been hard
and a struggle -
but I have
my dogs to snuggle...

I'm now planning
my next vacation -
where I'll finally
have relaxation...

A month away
I will be fine -
I got back the job
that was mine...

The only opinion
I'll value again -
is from myself
because then, I win!

Easy Like Sunday Morning

The sound of
the rocks crunching
beneath my shoes...

The sound of
the boats coming
into view...

The morning
sunrise beneath
towering trees...

The birds
flying above
the waters breeze...

It is where
I'm happy
and I want to be...

Why can't
that be the life
meant for me?

Nope

I gotta fly
like a mother fuckin
monkey...

I gotta run
like a bitch
from a pimp...

I gotta go
like nobody ever
saw me...

I gotta live
like I ain't no
fuckin wimp...

I gotta roll
with the punches
that I've taken...

I gotta laugh
when they think
that I care...

I gotta smile
when they fall
on their own face...

I gotta admit
that this bitch
just don't care.

Sink or Swim

I'm just going
to turn it off today -
So I can enjoy
my home and pray...

That all of this
will be over soon -
and our normal life
can resume...

So the world
can go out a play -
or have a patio lunch
on a sunny day...

That travel begins
with new sites to see -
today I will hope
we will soon be free.

666

It's scary
overwhelming -
who to trust
who to believe...

When it is
completely obvious -
how many times
they do deceive...

One world
with one hope?
or the book
of Revelations?

You would be
a blind sheep -
if you had
no hesitations...

Seeing it all
slowly unfold -
just like
I've heard for years...

You must get
the microchip -
to buy and sell
and it is clear...

The beast
will rule us all -
death and destruction
tears and fear...

but through Christ
our sacrificed savior -
our redemption
is very near.

Hindsight

If I had
a time machine -
It would never
mean a thing...

I would undo
and change the course -
to never feel
the sad remorse...

because I'd go
the other way -
and avoid
that fateful day.

Stuck

Why would I?
seeing with my own eye...

It's like being
kicked all over again...

Knowing inside
this will never end...

Why put up
with  a sickening ride...

When you know
you have no place to hide.

Joshua 1:9

Well, yep
there I went -
but the days
were definitely spent...

Seeing new
with a different view -
It was a good experience
but onto the new...

Who knows if
we'll still be here -
or even alive
in another year.

Blossoms

The trees are coming
back to life -
just like my son...

I'm amazed at the
Lord above -
and all that he's done...

He gives life
to each of us -
Yet, takes it away...

We will all stand
before him -
on judgement day...

I just wonder
the purpose -
why are we here...

but I will trust
in his will -
as I keep him near.

Potholes

Have you ever
been so tired
you couldn't sleep...

Have you ever
been so sad
you couldn't weep...

Have you ever
held a hand
you'll never see again...

But at the time
you didn't know
it was the end...

It takes the sails
and the wind
beneath your wings...

Wondering why
life has to bring
what it brings...

While you try
to get by
before you die...

Only to be
standing alone
and wonder why.

Day by Day

All you can do
is your very best -
life gives trials
and life gives tests...

How you handle
what's thrown at you -
is doing what's right
and seeing it through...

There will be ups
there will be downs -
just encourage the smiles
and not the frowns.

Prayers

Dear Lord
I ask for strength
for my son...

For I know
that you are
the only one...

To pull on
the strings
of life and death...

I just ask
Dear Lord
you're not ready yet...

If love
could save
he would live forever...

My love
for him
will never sever...

I would lay
down my life
and give him mine...

I can only pray
you heal his heart
and let him shine.

Amen

God gave him breath
another day -
He seems to listen
when I beg and pray...

Thank you my Lord
for saving my son -
once again
you were the one...

That gives life
as I plead for more -
I give you the glory
that is for sure.

Hood Girl

Every so often
I miss your class -
and totally regret
being an ass...

I wish I could
take it all back -
I miss your laugh
and hood girl tact...

You motivated
so much in me -
I followed you
quite faithfully...

No one else
can fill that void -
my fitness guru
is destroyed.

New Windows

Here I sit in a
different place -
surrounded by
each new face...

I have to wonder
if it was right -
as I lay down
to sleep each night...

I suppose I think
way to hard -
I already played
and dealt the card...

Even with
a tear in my eye -
I made the choice
that I can't deny...

So I must learn
to make do -
of this new life
I've committed to.

Moved On

It's like a puzzle
I'm putting together -
but I won't glue it
because nothing's forever...

I've learned so much
along this path -
I've felt the love
and I've felt the wrath...

That's when I know
to shut that door -
because me being used
won't work anymore.

Next

Ya know what
no worries anymore -
they can take it
or walk out the door...

Me or them
it doesn't matter anymore -
I'm on this planet too
and they aren't what I'm here for...

They can say whatever
and I could too -
but I can assure
I have better things to do.

Thank You for Having Me

Well...

There I go
there I go again -
I hope I like it
and another end...

I was happy
but heard the call-
was it a step up
or a tumbling fall...

Will this bring
new opportunity -
or will I regret
leaving my happy...

I guess in time
I will look back -
It's time to wake up
and pick up the slack...

I'll set new goals
and follow through -
for real a new year,
with a new me to do.

I Love You

The wind blew through -
how I thought of you...

and the way you're on speed dial...

We're older now -
we got through somehow...

but you've been with me all the while...

My love for you -
will be forever true...

for you make me always smile...

Let me be your friend -
to the bitter end...

and it will all be worth our while.

2020

One day you
wake up healed -
of all the negativity
and what killed...

Your spirit
and your pride -
When you were
dead inside...

You finally realize
it is gone -
that you actually
have moved on...

With a happy pep
in your step -
all that sadness
has finally left...

You to be what
you need to be -
on the right path
and so happy!