Bye Haters

There is
a lot of good
in this cruel sad world...

and I want
to be the shining
good girl...

I'm making
a turning
point finally...

I will
now only
believe in me.

Freedom

What it is that
I'm failing to see -
is that I am
completely free...

I don't have to deal
with anyone -
I can spend my days
just having fun...

I don't have to drive
in concrete hell -
I don't have to listen
to anyone tell...

me what I
should think or do -
out with the old
and onto the new!!

Goals

It's gone
because I let it go...

I've learned
and only I can know...

I've felt
pain and happiness...

I've made
my own type of mess...

I've decided
to start fresh and new...

I'm dedicated
to do all I can do.

Small Seats

Dear God
I'm going to
Florida today...

Thank God
I get to
get away...

Refresh
and cleanse
and leave it behind...

Focus
on myself
and try to be kind...

To my
self esteem
that is ripped away...

Dear God
let me find it
and show me the way.

Answered Prayers

Just be quiet
disappear -
You'll look back
in about a year...

and see how stupid
you have been -
and feel so silly
to remember when...

you almost threw it
all away -
you'll be glad for this
some day.

Will

You will
laugh again...

You will
be glad for the end...

You will
move on with life...

You will
love being the wife...

You will
feel healthy one day...

You will
be glad you walked away.

Awake

Hated and
manipulated -
verbally abused
more than one time...

Life vest
strapped -
to my chest
to save this life of mine...

Lied to
deceived -
eyes of hate
stabbed from behind...

Truth shines
brightly -
awoken to reality
I'm awake this time.

Tremble

Nothing -
Exactly what
you're going to do...

Never -
look back
it really wasn't you...

Shaking -
I see
what is really true.

Healing

You will look back
and see for sure -
this was what you needed
to endure...

It's for the best
as all things change -
and really it doesn't
mean anything...

Except it is
the best for you -
out with the old
and onto the new.

Deleted

I deleted anything
to do with you -
the pictures, emails
what we went through...

I closed it all
and shut it away -
it's gone and now
it's a brand new day...

You weren't good
at all for me -
you were about yourself
and now I see...

how you blamed it
all on my mind -
but you were the one
that was the angry kind.

Left

I don't know
what I did -
Stupid decisions
lived...

Saw the numbers
and wasted smiles -
living alone
and in denial...

I guess I'll go
and get away -
maybe that
is where I'll stay.

Next

Saw for myself
the outed traitor -
the one who was
the instigator...

the one who said
it's only change -
the one who is
what is deranged...

the one I hope
I never see again -
this chapter has
reached the end.

LIE

It can't be over
if it never was -
believing someone
just because...

living a lie
so stupid to see -
the dumbass fool
again was me....

Goodbye sweetheart
you were a lie -
and I can say
finally goodbye.

Numb

It just doesn't
matter anymore -
the water has iced
like never before...

There is no feeling
it is all gone -
I don't even care
what lies beyond...

The eyes are dead
a distant sight -
goodbye to it all
and goodnight.

Moving On

This I promise
to myself -
to never again
feel like I felt...

No more headaches
and broken hearts -
to never care and
just never start...

Never trust
what I hear -
this is now
crystal clear.

Good Riddance

They do not know

and do not care -

so why pursue

what is not there...

In solitude 

I'll find my way -

on my own

until my dying day.

Saved

I'm going
to be alright -
It was with myself
that I had the fight...

Always worried
they didn't want me -
how could I
have lived so blindly...

It was I
who didn't want them -
filled with terror
lost in sin...

I'm actually glad
that I am now free -
the one who was lost
and found was me.

Glass Shards

I won't reach out
to touch anything -
it's the only way
to avoid the sting...

I won't look back
or figure it out -
it's time to learn
to go without...

I won't try
to mend broken glass -
that is shattered into
and would never last...

with only epoxy
to hold it together -
the cut it left
was there to sever...

any attachment
to something not real -
the pain of the cut
left nothing to feel.

Bling

Never again -
This my friend
was the end...

who even -
cares anymore
there is no score...

and it will -
be forever
no more.

Left

A new leaf
has turned over -
the spring blew
the past behind...

I have wished
on the four leaf clover -
and I have found
what is mine...

I don't need
what is behind me -
what I've left
is far away...

So I can smile
for in reality -
I have found
a brand new day.