Bling

Never again -
This my friend
was the end...

who even -
cares anymore
there is no score...

and it will -
be forever
no more.

Left

A new leaf
has turned over -
the spring blew
the past behind...

I have wished
on the four leaf clover -
and I have found
what is mine...

I don't need
what is behind me -
what I've left
is far away...

So I can smile
for in reality -
I have found
a brand new day.

Space

What have I
learned -
I suppose it's
all earned...

The only good
I can say -
is being able
to hide away...

Maybe
it was time -
and maybe
I'll be fine...

After all
they are gone -
and I finally
move on.

Silence

Another one
gone..
Once again
I move on...

Learning
one more time...
To trust
this life of mine...

Is not
to be shared...
with those
who supposedly cared...

but really
needed more...
than you
could provide for.

Tears

Everything changes
year after year...
in a blink of an eye
what you hold dear...

is gone in a second
leaving you in the dust...
where do you turn
and who do you trust...

Not really sure
what I should think...
sit alone and cry or
crawl in a hole and shrink...

Memories came
but are left far behind...
with everyone's tears
especially mine.

Path

Left
far away
in the past...

Right
I see
parts of me...

Dormant
coming alive
I can thrive...

Vision
to follow
no longer hollow.

Fortune Cookie

I just don't know -
I suppose I'll find out...

What's ahead -
what it's all about...

It was the blind -
that lead the way...

At least I hid -
and went away...

There may be -
a future breakthrough...

To try once again -
is all I can do.

Kingdom

The fool
looked in the mirror
and asked the reflection...

What have I learned? -

The reflection
looked back said
apparently nothing -

Any success is earned.

Whatever it is
that keeps you awake
or allows you to sleep in peace...

Knowing the difference
between what you want
and what you need -

is what will set you free.

Tall Trees

Not sure why
all the hate...
I never did anything
to them anyway...

I'll build my walls
and protect my heart...
I'll save myself
before I fall apart...

Find my privacy
no matter how...
no matter the price
I won't give up now...

Hide and seek
and run far away...
I don't care anymore
what they think or say.

Blank Slate

Alone -
in a million ways...
by myself
in a lonely haze...

Just trying to be
what I want inside...
I can't even count
the tears I've cried...

Learning to live
understanding life...
dealing with anxiety
and so much strife...

Yet, I will try
to make it through...
as I wonder
what do I do?

Chords

Oatmeal cookies
after school -
the fire going
in the brick hearth...

My mom teaching
all the piano lessons -
little naps
on the blue bean bag...

Innocent times
with not much money -
dinner was welcome
the sink of dishes weren't...

The radio played
appropriate music -
the TV aired
appropriate shows...

People had class
and spoke with integrity -
unlike now
such a spite filled world...

I'll close my eyes
and think of when -
there was a time
I would live again.

Away

Nobody
or anywhere..

Hide away
it's finally fair...

Out of touch
and locked away...

Where I live
where I'll stay...

There is no one
I want to see...

Just me alone
finally free.

Passage

Foggy
absent of light,
Uncertain path -

Running
a new direction,
pacing myself -

Looking
over my shoulder,
but why -

Laughing
through the tears,
new life.

Check Mark

Run away
don't ever look back..

Focus on your strengths
and not what you lack...

Leave them all
in the dust behind...

Change your views
and change your mind...

You don't owe
anyone anything...

Just disappear
and find a new dream...

Live quiet and alone
and just being you...

Turn a new stone over
as you will get through.

Circus

Hidden
and humiliated
once again embarrassed -

the shame game...

Disappear
just gone
never see anyone -

forget my name...

Maybe
after years
and changing everything -

I can regain...

Hope
new growth
self esteem established -

and the end of pain.

Kiss

It's done, and it's quiet,
and that's ok
I have nothing left to say...

what a ride it all has been
I didn't try
and I didn't win...

at least not yet
because I foresee
finally happy times for me.

Faithful

I care about my dogs
more than anything...

Just to be with them
and the joy they bring...

Sweet and soft
so furry too...

My precious angels
I so love you...

Through all my life
my best friends were...

Covered in love
Covered in fur...

I'm so thankful
as I snuggle them to me...
 
That I love them
and they love me.

Flowers

It's weird
how you move on -
You look back
and they are all gone...

People that
you used to know -
you forget their names
and on you go...

But they meant
something to you -
life went bye
and you were through...

with that time
you won't have again -
but I'll never forget
a true and honest friend.

Smile

The truth is
you're going to die -
I don't know how
and I don't know why...

But one day
your breath will end -
Deny it all you want
but that's how it ends ...

So everyone
that is wise should see -
enjoy your damn life
take it from me.

Stars

Flowing -
like the river
and the stream...

Flying -
experiencing all
kinds of different things...

Seeing -
things I've never
seen before...

Freeing -
because it's not
my life anymore...

Happy -
because I
can chose what I pursue...

While watching -
my real dreams
come true.

Fireplace

There is no place
I'd rather be -
than in my home
quiet and free...

My furry friends
beneath my feet -
the sounds of my home
are so sweet...

Safe and secure
away from the crazy -
my private oasis
to be nice and lazy...

I love to be
just tucked away -
I thank God above
for where I stay.

Crock Pot

Stepped upon
then walked on -
until all trace of
hope is gone...

Pushed quite
far away -
with all of
the perks at bay...

Never meant
much of anything -
a phony life
with a phony ring.

Bye

I actually cared
I don't know why...
the reality is
we're all going to die...

Even the ones
who did you wrong -
who laughed in your face
as they strung you along...

who used you daily
for their own greed -
then threw you away
but you were freed...

from all the stress
and people who should go -
out of your life
that you don't need to know.

So I say goodbye
can't say I miss it -
I believe it is true
I no longer give a shit!

Sidewalk

It's a chain
it's up to me to break -
It's a cord
there is no no mistake...

It's a weight
I weigh myself down -
It's water that is so deep
you nearly drown...

It's a sprint
to get far out of here -
It's the face of reality
with the face of fear.

Axe

Sometimes you have
to let people go -
they never understood
and they don't know...

So sometimes it's good
to leave them behind -
and move forward
leaving them behind...

Not everyone should be
a happily ever after -
what makes you happy
is the only factor...

When you find
it's time to cut the chains -
break yourself free
and appreciate who remains.

Ribbons

I can't take it back
any of it -
so it's time to learn
to not give a shit...

Say what you want
talk out loud -
I'm still alive
and can be proud...

of a lot of things
that I've done right -
maybe not lately
but that's alright...

I still have time
to win this race -
it ain't over until
I win first place.

Thanks Anyway

They were
never the end -
because they were
never your friend...

Just a box
wrapped in a bow -
wanting you
to be the ho ho ho...

but you said
no no no...
and packed your bags
to go.

Wings

I've been lost
for quite some time -
trying to find
the path that's mine...

Trying to see
if I have a place -
staring at the demons
I have to face...

that want to throw
me down the well -
with a one way ticket
into hell...

while an angel
flutters her wings -
telling me there
will be better things...

and not to beat
myself up anymore -
that's not what I'm
on this earth for...

that I have value
just like everyone else -
it's just right now
I need my angels help.

Delete

I won't
ever again -
I finally have
reached the end...

Glad to be done
glad to be free -
I don't need you
and you don't need me...

I always knew
because I always do -
for some reason
my thoughts come true...

Now to totally
get rid and let go -
of any lingering person
I don't need to know.

The Bird

Hated...
Just thrown away -
out like the trash
on another trash day...

Not needed
Not wanted any more -
Not appreciated
shown out the door..

May have been
just wasted time -
as the world moves on
once more left behind.

Armor

Be careful who
you give your all too -
because you will find
they just used you...

Taking whatever
they can get -
and then move on
and totally forget...

anything about
that you thought was true -
because they already got
your all from you.

Weeds

What can you do?
Walk around and mope?
Throw it all way -
or hold onto hope...

So what if they're gone
so what if it's done -
It wasn't the right time
or wasn't the one...

Quit hanging on
to what makes you sad -
and move to the future
leaving out the bad.

Orange

Try as I might
I still feel -
with all the regrets
I try to heal...

With all I've learned
and all I've done -
I sit alone
and stare at the sun...

Wishing somehow
that ball of fire -
would clench my soul
and my desire...

Hair blowing
the sunroof open wide -
with a smile on my face
as I ride...

far away
no care at all -
time for a road trip
into fall.

Wish I Could

I really don't want
to be on this planet anymore -
In fact, I can't figure out
why I'm stuck her for...

Rude people
mean faces -
I long to leave
and totally erase...

my carbon footprint
my life at all -
I hate it
and can't wait to fall...

and be dead
and done with it -
I really no longer
give a shit!!

Future?

What do I want?
Do I even know?
Should I stay...
or should I go...

Do I even care
what else is out there -
Just moving along
with the wind and a prayer...

I used to think
there was something for me -
I used to have dreams
I was able to see...

A future so bright
I would wish on a star -
I had so many hopes
that I actually went far...

from an underage mother
with my sweet child in tow -
Yet, I still believed
how could I know...

That it would never happen
I would never have a place -
Maybe my future
is not in the rat race.

Sigh

Oh well...
what the hell -
never can say
and never can tell...

Moving on
because it's gone -
Don't rest unless
you stay too long...

Lessons learned
they're surely earned -
because mistakes
leave quite the burn...

I miss those days
before the craze -
but now it's just
a worn out haze.

Bye

Watch it yourself
do it yourself -
I'm not here
for your self help...

No more giving
any of my time -
to any person
who treats me unkind...

I'm not on this earth
to cater to you -
I'll do what the hell
I want  to do...

I really couldn't care
if I see you again -
I'm not your servant
I'm not your friend...

Enjoy yourself
and have a nice day -
when people use me
I just walk away.

Box

Streets named after them
and still dead -
a life of hopes and dreams
were all ahead...

It doesn't matter the amount
in the account -
because every single person
will amount...

to ashes to ashes
and dust to dust -
no longer in the world
to live with us...

and one day too
there will be -
dust upon ourselves
for eternity.

Transparent

It's two inches tall
and doesn't matter at all -
Just invisible visions
that no one ever saw...

Existing for no reason
a different day a different season -
Only to be used
until the next one is leaving...

Regrets mesmerized
left alone to be despised -
Just one more hanging head
using a smile for a disguise.

Sunrise

I took a little drive
down memory lane -
reminding me who I am
and I am the same...

Finally getting back
to what is actually real -
of where I should be
and what I should feel...

Sometimes disappointments
get in the way -
that's when you learn
to rely on the day...

when you knew who you were
without a doubt -
and embrace the you
that you can't live without.

Empty

It doesn't matter at all
that four letter word -
so much has been emptied
it has been absurd...

Could be a good
million miles away -
none of it matters
at all anyway...

No lesson to learn
no memory to cherish -
just another time
to crash, burn and perish...

the hole was quite deep
just like what will follow -
an emptied out shell
with everything hollow.

Puppies

This is where
I want to be -
surrounded by love
and the sweet furry...

away from the world
away from the mess -
this is what I want
I must confess...

all to myself
with all that I love -
this is the life
that I'm dreaming of.

Fences

Questioning it all
while I'm here -
through another day
through another year...

Another saddened state
as confusion abides -
left with the only choice
but take cover and hide...

Will there ever be
peace within the soul -
maybe eventually
when I finally go.

Window

Living on the edge
of more tears -
one more time
after all these years...

I played the fool
and said my worst fear -
now it's just quiet
as I see things clear...

Never again reveal
and avoid all I can -
keeping it to myself
is now the plan.

Again

Churn -
as the burn
stings you in the heart...

Sick -
in the mind
as you fall apart...

Once -
more again
feeling it's the end...

Quiet -
in my mind
full of regrets this time.

Never Again

Upwards and onwards
no more you -
don't even know
what I went through...

Finally leaving you
far in the past -
where I can breath
free at last...

Don't know why
I cared so much -
for someone out of reach
someone out of touch...

Someone who's not real
just full of air -
no longer will I see you
no  longer do I care.

Illusion

No need to care
if it's not there -
and wasting time
is never fair...

You have just one life
don't add more strife -
as you try each day
with all your might...

sometimes it's best
to let it rest -
leave it behind
and never confess...

how it hurt
and made you cry -
sometimes you have
to say goodbye.

Candles

Why does the spark go
and the excitement die -
when you have moved on
and have no reason to try...

I guess the light always
ends up blowing out -
leaving you to wonder
what it was all about...

and what there is left
to look forward to -
as you watch your life go on
and continue to pass you.

$3.75

I honestly don't
know what to say -
I sort of lost my head
somewhere along the way...

The sun used to set
straight into my eyes -
wearing the blue smock
down to my thighs...

I was so fast
they always said -
hot dogs and popcorn
I can't believe you're dead...

I wondered about you
through all the years -
elbow grease
and broken beers...

and then I left
I guess I quit -
and never saw you again
that was it...

But boy I'm thinking
of the sun in my eyes -
I hope you are at peace
and yes. I cried.

The Cross

It's been so many years
since that wooden pew -
and watching the sunrise
service with you...

Hearing you sing out
the old rugged cross -
that stood for him saving
all souls that are lost...

Easter in Ida with
sweet baskets you gave -
eating apple jacks cereal
and the good food you made...

The house smelled so fresh
just like your life -
such a wonderful mother
such a faithful wife...

You always told me
that I was special to you -
Yet, you were my rock
that helped me pull through...

Sickness and chicken pox,
surgery and my son -
I was blessed by God
that you were the one...

He gave to me
to hear about him -
on this holy day
I think about then...

You lived by the good book
and sang I'll fly away -
now you're at his throne
and that's where you'll stay.


.

Refresh

Is there anything out there
that plants the seeds of hope -
that makes the day worthwhile
and it easier to cope...

with day to day distractions
that only stress you out -
and all of the monotony
you'd prefer to live without...

Is there anywhere out there
where the sun kisses your face -
and you sit in total happiness
knowing it is your place...

to finally unwind
and feel happiness that's true -
healing your mind and soul
beneath a sky of blue.

Clear

Delete -
Complete
Never again deceit...

Ran -
Away
no more will I play...

Hide -
Avoid
no more paranoid...

Done -
Gone
time to move it on.

Rush Hour

Walking through
the waterfall -
just wanna run away
and forget it all...

Leave this mess
in my back seat -
and only meet
who I want to meet...

Don't want to waste
more time on stress -
Don't want to live
in this concrete mess...

If I had a horse
I'd ride away -
and leave behind
this steel highway.

Cold

I can feel the frozen chill
all the way to here -
the silence is quite loud,
the message is quite clear...

The truth may have been muffled
yet it made it's way through -
because fake never lasts
and once again it's true...

When the mask is removed
and you stare straight in the eyes -
you see all you have missed
and you learn from all the lies.

Pillows

I dreamed so vivid
I believed it was true -
As I closed my eyes
I believed in you...

Only to awaken
and see the blinding sun -
Peeping through my window
as the night is done...

It was just a vision
just a somber sweet dream -
I wipe my eyes dry
because dreams don't mean a thing...

They're just foggy thoughts
not based in anything true -
just mental mind games
that your conscience travels too.

Hidden

Sometimes -
life takes you by the hand...
and leads you to places
you will never understand...

holding tight
as the ship glides full speed...
letting go
as the wind guides your feet,,,

What will happen now?
What will be perceived?
What will come and go?
What will be freed?

Living in
a chaotic war -
No one is sure
what anything is meant for...

as they spy
their eyes upon your door -
it is all temporary
and that is for sure.

Ice

The cold blows through

and knocks me into -

while all of these memories

sometimes leave me blue...

Like the wintery mix

that waters my eyes -

and the clouded thoughts

I've learned to despise...

I took a long walk

in the icy winter rain -

to chill all the thoughts

and freeze all the pain...

So much has come

and so much has gone -

the only choice left

is to learn to move on...

I have to let go

of all that is frozen -

and leave it in my memory

for the life I have chosen.

Lessons

I guess I'll be ok -
They can say what they want to say...

I'll just hide away -
and take things day by day...

I can't change their mind -
Need to make up for lost time....

Reclaim this life of mine -
and realize I will be fine...

Wipe those teardrops clean -
They don't mean a thing...

Find out what each day brings -
and try to dwell on happy things.

Half Full

You never can tell
what the future holds -
and maybe it's because
you don't really want to know...

Day by day
and year by year -
can leave more questions
and sometimes more fear...

Just trying to make a way
when you seem invisible -
can leave your cup half empty
when it needs to be half full.

Erased

I was up so high
I never realized I could fall -
until I hit the ground
and faced a brick wall...

In the beginning I had hope
to grab a brass ring -
until I saw the truth
that it didn't mean a thing...

I tried will all my might
though even I couldn't see -
why I lost my way
or what it meant to me...

I will never know
what happened to my mind -
I just know it's gone
and left me far behind.

Bye

I have learned
it all again -
no more tears
when I can't win...

letting them go
and slamming the door -
there is no reason
to come back for...

I have left
and I will heal -
learning how
to never feel!

Reality

Three years now
to the date -
it went full circle
and now it's too late...

The shiny lights
the hopeful heart -
was just an act
from the very start...

a foolish burden
that I couldn't bear -
not that it matters
when they don't care.

Sting

Learn -
Feel...
Leave it -
Heal...

I think now
it's all behind -
Dealing with
a realistic mind...

As I put on
my suit of steel -
I'm learning how
to never feel.

Doors

I guess I came through

to the other side -

I try to count how many 

tears I've cried...

Yet here I am

Still on my two feet -

making progress

even through defeat...

I will accept it

I will let it go -

how it affected me

only I will know...

Learning to never

get that close again -

because it only

bites you in the end.

Shooting Star

I tried to catch a shooting star
so bright I couldn't see -
the heat was way too hot
and high and mighty for me...

I tried to capture the bright light
only to be led into the dark -
getting so lost along the way
I almost fell apart...

I may never see
a shooting star again -
but now I know to never grasp
what burns you in the end.

Front Seat

Emerging out of the darkness -
the scary days of haze...
not knowing where to go -
existing through the phase...

of uncontrolled emotion -
gripping from inside...
nowhere to run -
and nowhere to hide...

running through the streets -
searching my way home...
learning once again -
I'm better on my own.

Reflection

One day I will awake and find
I have stopped -

looking...
hoping...
dreaming...

It will have slipped away like water
through my fingers -

unable to be kept...
unable to be grasped...
unable to be mine...

yet...

I will be cleansed and somehow
through its mirrored reflection -

I will find a rainbow
has appeared.

Broken

I feel so small
through it all -
from so high up
it was quite a fall...

No safety net
to soften the blow -
the only choice
was to finally go...

The solitude
will embrace the new -
when there is nothing
left to do...

but lick the wounds
that stabbed my soul -
from when I slipped
and fell so low.

Ripped

The finale
and facing regrets -
I didn't know
how to deal with it...

I wasn't strong
and was so wrong -
I acted a fool
all along...

Rain pounding
like my heart -
never knew
it could rip apart...

and leave my soul
torn into -
I just didn't know
what to do.

Done

I've wasted too much time
of this life of mine -

Chasing a rainbow dream
that wasn't what it seemed -

Now I hope to go
and never again show -

How stupid I can be
just trying to be me -

I'll let go of the past
and be free at last.

Desire

Is it possible -
to climb over
the towering gates of hell...

Is it possible -
for anyone
to hear the damned yell...

Where witches dance -
and spells are cast
to send one to their knees...

Where evil tempts -
and binds its victim
never to be freed...

Where blood is shed -
and torment taunts
dangling drops of love...

And the victim cries -
out for mercy
to the one above...

To cut the chains -
to free the cuffs
holding the one in fire...

To lose the hope -
or kill the soul
of the hopeless filled desire.

Regrets

Quiet
and reflective -
never again deceptive...

Learning
the hard way -
what never to say...

Letting
the drowning end -
running away again...

Fleeing
what ties me down -
never to be around...

What
tears me apart -
and always breaks my heart.

Ice

The day it went out
cold water, red face -
finally realizing
it was never my place...

Too much life wasted
too much life lost -
It was never even worth
the very high cost...

Fools learn the hard way
what a fool can do -
just sitting back as they
make one of you...

Numbness is freeing
the best way to feel -
stepping back into reality
and what is real.

Match

Does the enemy consist
of love or desire -
wanting the one
who flames the fire...

Yet tantalizes with
such a fatal kiss -
leaving obsession
behind in the midst...

Of a total breakdown
aimed at the heart -
never to mend what
was torn apart...

Left to smolder
in hopeless desire -
burned alive after
playing with fire.

Bees

From passion to pain
inhaling the dark -
that final message
leaving her spark...

Upon a cold world
though she wouldn't see -
her death had already
come to be...

She called upon no one
there was none to call -
That novel of everything
was nothing at all...

Forbidden fruit
secrets and lies -
Receiving his invitation
to die...

Her soul to eternally 
haunt his path -
tragic a love
to love like Plath.

Ghost

I've been so weak
for way too long -
I'm determined now
it's time to get strong...

I've been a fool
for too much time -
I'm learning to reclaim
this life of mine...

If someone doesn't see
if someone doesn't care -
it's time to walk away and
no longer be there...

If you don't mean anything
and they are everything to you -
slamming that door shut
is all that you can do.

Searching

Will the sun
ever shine again -
and dry up this wetness
that just won't end...

Will Spring bring
a brand new chapter -
and change all of what
I have been after...

Will time lead
this weathered path -
towards new found peace
freedom at last...

Will my distance
bring me back around -
where the me I've lost
can be found.

Silhouette

Alone and full of
thoughts that only confuse -
feeling quite low
feeling quite used...

The rain pouring down
on a window to dark to see -
it's time to ride this storm out
knowing it has to be...

Acceptance with turmoil
it doesn't matter anymore -
facing the truth
there is nothing to go back for.

Drawbridge

She stopped her heart
of the pitter patter -
realizing that
it doesn't really matter...

Her hair couldn't quite
reach the ground -
to free her from the castle
where she was bound...

So she gave up
and let it go -
no matter how much
she loved it so.

Moving On

Everything is going

to be ok -

I have a new perspective

on a brand new day...

I'm dusting off

my walking shoes -

with no more time

to sing these blues...

As I shake it off

I won't look back -

I see what I have

not what I lack...

I'm leaving them all

in the dust behind -

I'm moving on

for good this time.

Swept Away

Like glitter
after a party -
lying listless, stepped on by all...

On their way out
without a doubt -
the laughter left within the walls...

Swept up
not needed anymore -
forgotten with the new day...

So shiny
so much fun to see -
and then just thrown away.

Ink Pen

Trying to
get over you -
is like trying to lasso the moon...

Shining on a
beacon of secrets -
buried in unseen doons...

On a wild
white stallion -
overtaken by the wind...

Such an
incredible feeling -
to never feel again...

Washing all over
my body -
drenched by a sensational star...

Leaving me
quite speechless -
this beautiful view from afar...

A poet's cafe
with words written -
throughout all of time...

For love is
what inspired -
the pain for the rhyme.

Pockets

There's a cost
for living in a dream world -
believing the impossible dream...

For closing your eyes
and seeing things -
which can never be seen...

For hoping beyond
the sky high walls -
for seeing a rope to climb...

For loving what
can never be captured -
for wanting what can't be mine...

There's a cost
for feeling the raindrops -
while searching the ground for a way...

I've found it's
worth more than gold -
for which I have no way to pay.

Stung

It stings like a bee,
deep inside of me -
knowing it will never be...

It cuts like a knife,
I must do what's right -
I've nothing to fight...

I will just walk away,
on this dreary sad day -
no matter what I say...

There's no message
in those eyes -
I must let that dream die...

I stare up
towards the sky -
while I let myself cry...

as I wave to you goodbye.

Deleted

Now it is gone
just plucked away -
leaving me speechless
of what to say...

Maybe it's for
the very best -
maybe I wouldn't
have passed the test...

I just wonder as
it boogles my mind -
what even happened
is now behind...

Maybe I'll wake up
and finally see -
it wasn't sweet fate
at least not for me.

Secrets

I'm so infatuated with you
I don't know what to do -
Don't know how to break through
and don't know what is true...

I think of you all day
I don't know what to say -
Just wish it would go away
yet come what may...

You awakened me
and made me finally see -
that laughter is always free
and it's alright to be...

who I am inside
no need to run and hide -
will I ever confide
I'd like you by my side.

Butterfly

I no longer care
I still don't know -
how it even
started so..

I'm taking back
my control -
and letting this
whole thing go...

Random thoughts
unsaid emotion -
like I took
some kind of potion...

A sick spell
I'm snuffing out -
getting rid
of my self doubt...

by not even
going there -
I'm free as
I no longer care.

Shine

Fairy tales only
exist in books -
you can't believe in them
from a look...

Keep your feet grounded
if your head's in the sky -
don't worry about how,
and don't care about why...

The sun will shine
and smiles will come -
what's happened is over
what's done is done...

Don't let negativity
dominate your thoughts -
brush off the critcs
and believe that you've got...

Anything and everything
to break on through -
Shine in your own spotlight
and believe in you!

Closure

I'll get through -
I'll be ok...
don't even waste one more day...

things don't always
go the way -
you hope and fantasize each day...

Stronger, better
a lesson learned -
no matter how bad it burned...

Wasted thoughts
and wasted desire -
you can put out your own fire...

Accept it,
face it full on -
you will remember when it's gone...

how you took
your shattered heart
and made yourself a brand new start...

by getting though
you are ok -
don't even waste one more day!

Up

Push - Fall...
Get up again -
No matter what
I'm going to win...

Walk on bye...
look straight ahead -
Head held high
who cares what's said...

Believe in
the only you -
and do the best
that you can do...

when it's all
said and done -
the life you live is
your only one!

Rush

I see you across the room
and butterflies fly -
I feel I know you well
and we've never even said hi...

Do you see me appreciate
the beauty you exude so well -
do you see me staring
hoping that you can't tell...

that I wanna know why
I wanna know you -
I wanna know if
you're drawn to me too...

when you smile my way
I wonder if it's for me -
when you look in my eyes
I wonder if you can see...

how you've taken all
my curiosity -
and put me in a daze
I never thought I would be...

wanting to know why
I wanna know you -
I wanna know if
you're drawn to me too.

Heat

Noone has to know -
of what you can't let go...

Push it deep within -
no need to share with them...

Or anyone at all -
it is only your fast fall...

Your eyes hold the key -
to the secrets that must be...

Kept in your emerald box -
you held when your eyes crossed...

Pitiful little patters -
can't even see what matters...

So near and so intense -
yet you will only have the glimpse...

Of your hearts desire -
you should never play with fire.

Rain

Hot breath
soft bed -
the music dancing
in our heads...

lucious lips
mirrored two -
lost in lustful
sin with you...

your taste
longing heat -
moving to
the heart beat...

eyes closed
it came true -
secret whispers
filled with you.

Flutter

You are
my taboo -
sitting here secretly wanting you..

as you dance
in my mind -
with the desire of having just one time..

within your lips
within your grasp -
within whatever you're holding back..

you are
my taboo -
sitting here day dreaming about you...

I want your hand
on my thigh -
I'm saying it all with just my eyes...

my heart pounds
just a little bit more -
wondering why you infatuated it for..

you are
my taboo -
sitting here secretly wanting you.

Twinkle

My crush
just crashed -
time to leave it in the past...

and forget about
this lingering doubt.

My heart skipped
a beat -
second time in a week...

but forget about
what will never work out...

Secrets
fill my mind -
it happens time after time...

But I won't let my feet
skip a beat...

because my crush
just crashed -
sure made my heart beat fast.

Transparent

I wanted to go,
but the hole was more inviting...
finally gave up to the
imagination fighting...

resisting existing...
no energy for fixing...

the need
to tuck away -
a not have to face
anything day...

fade to black...
no reason to fight back.

Chains

It's quite quiet
in here -
I can hear it
quite clear...

all the thoughts
that make me think.

It's quite chilly
in here -
holding what
I hold dear...

as I find myself
still standing on the brink.

If I could just
make it come true -
all of the things
I long to do...

I might finally
find that happy missing link.

Ladder

Standing at the bottom
looking up -
how will I get through
this life and my luck...

Setting free a bunch
of empty dreams -
the more that I hope
the further they seem...

Ready to just throw
in the towel -
In order to move up
I have to start climbing now...

It's dark here and
full of pounding strife -
I guess it's no big deal
as it's only my life.

Heat

All alone -
this side of the fire...
left behind to -
quench this desire..

Did I do the right thing?
If so, why is there pain?

How to know which road to go...

Broken hearts -
a dime a dozen...
when you once believed -
what was really wasn't...

What about the memories...
living inside of me...

how to know which road to go.

Restless

A heart
torn into -
tears come
it's nothing new...

No longer
me and you -
and I'm lost as to
what to do...

Regrets
twisted knife -
only to live
this one life...

Now to
face the day -
when there is nothing
left to say.