Ice

The cold blows through

and knocks me into -

while all of these memories

sometimes leave me blue...

Like the wintery mix

that waters my eyes -

and the clouded thoughts

I've learned to despise...

I took a long walk

in the icy winter rain -

to chill all the thoughts

and freeze all the pain...

So much has come

and so much has gone -

the only choice left

is to learn to move on...

I have to let go

of all that is frozen -

and leave it in my memory

for the life I have chosen.

Lessons

I guess I'll be ok -
They can say what they want to say...

I'll just hide away -
and take things day by day...

I can't change their mind -
Need to make up for lost time....

Reclaim this life of mine -
and realize I will be fine...

Wipe those teardrops clean -
They don't mean a thing...

Find out what each day brings -
and try to dwell on happy things.

Half Full

You never can tell
what the future holds -
and maybe it's because
you don't really want to know...

Day by day
and year by year -
can leave more questions
and sometimes more fear...

Just trying to make a way
when you seem invisible -
can leave your cup half empty
when it needs to be half full.

Erased

I was up so high
I never realized I could fall -
until I hit the ground
and faced a brick wall...

In the beginning I had hope
to grab a brass ring -
until I saw the truth
that it didn't mean a thing...

I tried will all my might
though even I couldn't see -
why I lost my way
or what it meant to me...

I will never know
what happened to my mind -
I just know it's gone
and left me far behind.

Bye

I have learned
it all again -
no more tears
when I can't win...

letting them go
and slamming the door -
there is no reason
to come back for...

I have left
and I will heal -
learning how
to never feel!

Reality

Three years now
to the date -
it went full circle
and now it's too late...

The shiny lights
the hopeful heart -
was just an act
from the very start...

a foolish burden
that I couldn't bear -
not that it matters
when they don't care.

Sting

Learn -
Feel...
Leave it -
Heal...

I think now
it's all behind -
Dealing with
a realistic mind...

As I put on
my suit of steel -
I'm learning how
to never feel.

Doors

I guess I came through

to the other side -

I try to count how many 

tears I've cried...

Yet here I am

Still on my two feet -

making progress

even through defeat...

I will accept it

I will let it go -

how it affected me

only I will know...

Learning to never

get that close again -

because it only

bites you in the end.

Shooting Star

I tried to catch a shooting star
so bright I couldn't see -
the heat was way too hot
and high and mighty for me...

I tried to capture the bright light
only to be led into the dark -
getting so lost along the way
I almost fell apart...

I may never see
a shooting star again -
but now I know to never grasp
what burns you in the end.

Front Seat

Emerging out of the darkness -
the scary days of haze...
not knowing where to go -
existing through the phase...

of uncontrolled emotion -
gripping from inside...
nowhere to run -
and nowhere to hide...

running through the streets -
searching my way home...
learning once again -
I'm better on my own.

Reflection

One day I will awake and find
I have stopped -

looking...
hoping...
dreaming...

It will have slipped away like water
through my fingers -

unable to be kept...
unable to be grasped...
unable to be mine...

yet...

I will be cleansed and somehow
through its mirrored reflection -

I will find a rainbow
has appeared.

Broken

I feel so small
through it all -
from so high up
it was quite a fall...

No safety net
to soften the blow -
the only choice
was to finally go...

The solitude
will embrace the new -
when there is nothing
left to do...

but lick the wounds
that stabbed my soul -
from when I slipped
and fell so low.

Ripped

The finale
and facing regrets -
I didn't know
how to deal with it...

I wasn't strong
and was so wrong -
I acted a fool
all along...

Rain pounding
like my heart -
never knew
it could rip apart...

and leave my soul
torn into -
I just didn't know
what to do.

Done

I've wasted too much time
of this life of mine -

Chasing a rainbow dream
that wasn't what it seemed -

Now I hope to go
and never again show -

How stupid I can be
just trying to be me -

I'll let go of the past
and be free at last.

Desire

Is it possible -
to climb over
the towering gates of hell...

Is it possible -
for anyone
to hear the damned yell...

Where witches dance -
and spells are cast
to send one to their knees...

Where evil tempts -
and binds its victim
never to be freed...

Where blood is shed -
and torment taunts
dangling drops of love...

And the victim cries -
out for mercy
to the one above...

To cut the chains -
to free the cuffs
holding the one in fire...

To lose the hope -
or kill the soul
of the hopeless filled desire.

Regrets

Quiet
and reflective -
never again deceptive...

Learning
the hard way -
what never to say...

Letting
the drowning end -
running away again...

Fleeing
what ties me down -
never to be around...

What
tears me apart -
and always breaks my heart.

Ice

The day it went out
cold water, red face -
finally realizing
it was never my place...

Too much life wasted
too much life lost -
It was never even worth
the very high cost...

Fools learn the hard way
what a fool can do -
just sitting back as they
make one of you...

Numbness is freeing
the best way to feel -
stepping back into reality
and what is real.

Match

Does the enemy consist
of love or desire -
wanting the one
who flames the fire...

Yet tantalizes with
such a fatal kiss -
leaving obsession
behind in the midst...

Of a total breakdown
aimed at the heart -
never to mend what
was torn apart...

Left to smolder
in hopeless desire -
burned alive after
playing with fire.

Bees

From passion to pain
inhaling the dark -
that final message
leaving her spark...

Upon a cold world
though she wouldn't see -
her death had already
come to be...

She called upon no one
there was none to call -
That novel of everything
was nothing at all...

Forbidden fruit
secrets and lies -
Receiving his invitation
to die...

Her soul to eternally 
haunt his path -
tragic a love
to love like Plath.

Ghost

I've been so weak
for way too long -
I'm determined now
it's time to get strong...

I've been a fool
for too much time -
I'm learning to reclaim
this life of mine...

If someone doesn't see
if someone doesn't care -
it's time to walk away and
no longer be there...

If you don't mean anything
and they are everything to you -
slamming that door shut
is all that you can do.

Searching

Will the sun
ever shine again -
and dry up this wetness
that just won't end...

Will Spring bring
a brand new chapter -
and change all of what
I have been after...

Will time lead
this weathered path -
towards new found peace
freedom at last...

Will my distance
bring me back around -
where the me I've lost
can be found.

Silhouette

Alone and full of
thoughts that only confuse -
feeling quite low
feeling quite used...

The rain pouring down
on a window to dark to see -
it's time to ride this storm out
knowing it has to be...

Acceptance with turmoil
it doesn't matter anymore -
facing the truth
there is nothing to go back for.

Drawbridge

She stopped her heart
of the pitter patter -
realizing that
it doesn't really matter...

Her hair couldn't quite
reach the ground -
to free her from the castle
where she was bound...

So she gave up
and let it go -
no matter how much
she loved it so.

Moving On

Everything is going

to be ok -

I have a new perspective

on a brand new day...

I'm dusting off

my walking shoes -

with no more time

to sing these blues...

As I shake it off

I won't look back -

I see what I have

not what I lack...

I'm leaving them all

in the dust behind -

I'm moving on

for good this time.

Swept Away

Like glitter
after a party -
lying listless, stepped on by all...

On their way out
without a doubt -
the laughter left within the walls...

Swept up
not needed anymore -
forgotten with the new day...

So shiny
so much fun to see -
and then just thrown away.

Ink Pen

Trying to
get over you -
is like trying to lasso the moon...

Shining on a
beacon of secrets -
buried in unseen doons...

On a wild
white stallion -
overtaken by the wind...

Such an
incredible feeling -
to never feel again...

Washing all over
my body -
drenched by a sensational star...

Leaving me
quite speechless -
this beautiful view from afar...

A poet's cafe
with words written -
throughout all of time...

For love is
what inspired -
the pain for the rhyme.

Pockets

There's a cost
for living in a dream world -
believing the impossible dream...

For closing your eyes
and seeing things -
which can never be seen...

For hoping beyond
the sky high walls -
for seeing a rope to climb...

For loving what
can never be captured -
for wanting what can't be mine...

There's a cost
for feeling the raindrops -
while searching the ground for a way...

I've found it's
worth more than gold -
for which I have no way to pay.

Stung

It stings like a bee,
deep inside of me -
knowing it will never be...

It cuts like a knife,
I must do what's right -
I've nothing to fight...

I will just walk away,
on this dreary sad day -
no matter what I say...

There's no message
in those eyes -
I must let that dream die...

I stare up
towards the sky -
while I let myself cry...

as I wave to you goodbye.

Deleted

Now it is gone
just plucked away -
leaving me speechless
of what to say...

Maybe it's for
the very best -
maybe I wouldn't
have passed the test...

I just wonder as
it boogles my mind -
what even happened
is now behind...

Maybe I'll wake up
and finally see -
it wasn't sweet fate
at least not for me.

Secrets

I'm so infatuated with you
I don't know what to do -
Don't know how to break through
and don't know what is true...

I think of you all day
I don't know what to say -
Just wish it would go away
yet come what may...

You awakened me
and made me finally see -
that laughter is always free
and it's alright to be...

who I am inside
no need to run and hide -
will I ever confide
I'd like you by my side.

Butterfly

I no longer care
I still don't know -
how it even
started so..

I'm taking back
my control -
and letting this
whole thing go...

Random thoughts
unsaid emotion -
like I took
some kind of potion...

A sick spell
I'm snuffing out -
getting rid
of my self doubt...

by not even
going there -
I'm free as
I no longer care.

Shine

Fairy tales only
exist in books -
you can't believe in them
from a look...

Keep your feet grounded
if your head's in the sky -
don't worry about how,
and don't care about why...

The sun will shine
and smiles will come -
what's happened is over
what's done is done...

Don't let negativity
dominate your thoughts -
brush off the critcs
and believe that you've got...

Anything and everything
to break on through -
Shine in your own spotlight
and believe in you!

Closure

I'll get through -
I'll be ok...
don't even waste one more day...

things don't always
go the way -
you hope and fantasize each day...

Stronger, better
a lesson learned -
no matter how bad it burned...

Wasted thoughts
and wasted desire -
you can put out your own fire...

Accept it,
face it full on -
you will remember when it's gone...

how you took
your shattered heart
and made yourself a brand new start...

by getting though
you are ok -
don't even waste one more day!

Up

Push - Fall...
Get up again -
No matter what
I'm going to win...

Walk on bye...
look straight ahead -
Head held high
who cares what's said...

Believe in
the only you -
and do the best
that you can do...

when it's all
said and done -
the life you live is
your only one!

Rush

I see you across the room
and butterflies fly -
I feel I know you well
and we've never even said hi...

Do you see me appreciate
the beauty you exude so well -
do you see me staring
hoping that you can't tell...

that I wanna know why
I wanna know you -
I wanna know if
you're drawn to me too...

when you smile my way
I wonder if it's for me -
when you look in my eyes
I wonder if you can see...

how you've taken all
my curiosity -
and put me in a daze
I never thought I would be...

wanting to know why
I wanna know you -
I wanna know if
you're drawn to me too.

Heat

Noone has to know -
of what you can't let go...

Push it deep within -
no need to share with them...

Or anyone at all -
it is only your fast fall...

Your eyes hold the key -
to the secrets that must be...

Kept in your emerald box -
you held when your eyes crossed...

Pitiful little patters -
can't even see what matters...

So near and so intense -
yet you will only have the glimpse...

Of your hearts desire -
you should never play with fire.

Rain

Hot breath
soft bed -
the music dancing
in our heads...

lucious lips
mirrored two -
lost in lustful
sin with you...

your taste
longing heat -
moving to
the heart beat...

eyes closed
it came true -
secret whispers
filled with you.

Flutter

You are
my taboo -
sitting here secretly wanting you..

as you dance
in my mind -
with the desire of having just one time..

within your lips
within your grasp -
within whatever you're holding back..

you are
my taboo -
sitting here day dreaming about you...

I want your hand
on my thigh -
I'm saying it all with just my eyes...

my heart pounds
just a little bit more -
wondering why you infatuated it for..

you are
my taboo -
sitting here secretly wanting you.

Twinkle

My crush
just crashed -
time to leave it in the past...

and forget about
this lingering doubt.

My heart skipped
a beat -
second time in a week...

but forget about
what will never work out...

Secrets
fill my mind -
it happens time after time...

But I won't let my feet
skip a beat...

because my crush
just crashed -
sure made my heart beat fast.

Transparent

I wanted to go,
but the hole was more inviting...
finally gave up to the
imagination fighting...

resisting existing...
no energy for fixing...

the need
to tuck away -
a not have to face
anything day...

fade to black...
no reason to fight back.

Chains

It's quite quiet
in here -
I can hear it
quite clear...

all the thoughts
that make me think.

It's quite chilly
in here -
holding what
I hold dear...

as I find myself
still standing on the brink.

If I could just
make it come true -
all of the things
I long to do...

I might finally
find that happy missing link.

Ladder

Standing at the bottom
looking up -
how will I get through
this life and my luck...

Setting free a bunch
of empty dreams -
the more that I hope
the further they seem...

Ready to just throw
in the towel -
In order to move up
I have to start climbing now...

It's dark here and
full of pounding strife -
I guess it's no big deal
as it's only my life.

Heat

All alone -
this side of the fire...
left behind to -
quench this desire..

Did I do the right thing?
If so, why is there pain?

How to know which road to go...

Broken hearts -
a dime a dozen...
when you once believed -
what was really wasn't...

What about the memories...
living inside of me...

how to know which road to go.

Restless

A heart
torn into -
tears come
it's nothing new...

No longer
me and you -
and I'm lost as to
what to do...

Regrets
twisted knife -
only to live
this one life...

Now to
face the day -
when there is nothing
left to say.

Spinning

Many lives lived during one life -

student, teacher -

husband, wife -
child, mother -
enemy, lover-

the roads are long and twisting...

cycling people and situations
over and over again.

Like a dryer...

round and round...
mirroring the world.

Forgiveness

See through and
Quite transparent -
Reminded why it's done...

You came, you saw
and went -
That was not the one...

Grasp your glass
half empty -
and see that it's half full...

Smile
for after all -
it turned out quite beautiful!

Door Mat

I told you goodbye
when you walked out that door -
and I shut it behind you
that's what doors are for -

Now it's locked up tight
That is for sure...

I threw out your opinions
and forgot your name -
I don't care who's at fault
or who is to blame -

I'm done with you
and your blame game...

I don't care where you're going
because I know where you've been -
I assure you honey
you won't be there again -

Go live happily ever after
Case closed - the end!

Peace

I give it all to you
I lay it in your hands -
you've heard my humble cries
at the mercy of your commands...

I step up to the edge
and fall into your arms -
as you lift me from this world
and all it's worldly harms...

Set gently on my knees
arms up to the sky -
as you lift it all away
I wave to it goodbye.

Dotted Lines

Following the rainbow path
splattered with rain -
showing that all our work
hasn't been in vain...

creeping down this road
twisting us through -
now it's becoming clear
what we can do...

As the sun peaks out
and out shines the dew
we skip along this journey
to one that's new.

Clouds

She only dreams in color -
She looks to the sky to sigh...
Perusing all her options -
as once again she tries...

To flee from the walls
that close her in too tight -
she knows once she's free
she'll run with all her might.

Water Colors

Just like it never existed
a dream that never was -
Floating through the air
surviving just because...

A hint of troubled times
while coloring out of lines -
Knowing it’s only mine
sweet memories of those times...

I catch my breath to breathe
as it could never be -
Sometimes you live the truth
while living in a dream.

Wish

I wish I knew
How to see -
The choices that are
Right for me…

A laundry list
A marked out map -
With where to go
And what to pack…

I wish I knew
What to do -
Give up now
Or follow through…

I wish I knew
my hope is real -
And hands will shake
on a real deal.

Time

I'm amazed how
the body repairs itself...

emotional wounds -
heal...

physical wounds -
heal...

mental wounds -
heal...

In awe of the ability
to heal.

Steel

A knife twisted in the back
though I don't know why -
Letting go of joy I know
from those days gone bye...

Tears broken down in blood
just as in the heart -
I don't know where to go
after the depart...

Ice cold melted warm love
shivers down my spine -
Like steel metal shocking one
silently from behind.

Kia

Majestic and beautiful
thick coat, blue eyes -
marking your territory
with your wolf like cries...

Strong and courageous
yet liked a belly scratch -
and treats in the afternoon
before a long stretched out nap...

Your home was your own
to protect each day -
no one was getting
through you they'd say...

Sneaky, yet good
never saw you misbehave -
just the remnants of all
the little messes you made...

Half a dozen or so
vanished cup cakes -
Unprotected meat
gone right from the plate...

Guarded your bowl
like a prison guard -
circled and trolled daily
your treasured yard...

Each day I will miss
those eyes so blue -
You were a blessing,
we so loved you...

Now free to the rainbow bridge
you will run -
I'll miss you forever...
say hi to Molly and D'bun.

Wind

If I had a million dollars
I'd fade away -
trying, crying and sighing
ain't helping anyway...

Walking along
lifes lost highway -
got nothing left to lose
and nothing more to say...

Freedom
can come in many forms -
maybe it's what we lost
when we chose to conform...

not everyone fits into
everyone elses norm -
so who was it that said
this is why we're born.

If I had a million dollars
I'd run to the sea -
smiling at the sun
and enjoying being me.

Mailboxes

I'm gonna hope,
I'm gonna dream,
things just might turn out -
how they seem...

I'm gonna pray,
I'm gonna stay,
and try to get by -
another day...

when wondering
is holding the reins -
when focusing
is work tried in vein...

I'm gonna step out,
to follow my own path -
even if it means
facing my own wrath.

I'm gonna hope,
I'm gonna dream,
things just might turn out -
how they seem.

Soaring

I wish there was
a rainbow path
to guide the way -

dreaming of a distant
place where
I'll spend each day...

With a fan from
angels wings
imagination soars...

while I'm waiting and hoping
to walk through
that open door.

Corners

Tall walls
So go away -
Annoying
just another day...

Can't quite seem
to rid the noise -
try to handle it
with poise...

Avoiding
up until the time -
that this is finally
left behind.

Released

I will smile
I will stand tall -
knowing I am
worth it all...

shoulders back
strength from within -
hear words of wisdom
and believe again...

look in the mirror
let hope expand -
if I don't do it myself
who can.

Roses

Fresh and new
pink budding through -
to great each day
a happy way -
sweet delight
sweet dreams at night -
a brand new path
is a beautiful sight -
hope and pray
enjoy today.

Doves

Some see the light of stardom
this world can't overcome -

living in the shadows
of a name that made it wrong -

to have human flaw
when they think you have it all -

and silence is your
only friend to hear your call...

they think you're at the top
as though you have it all...

yet you're searching from the bottom
no cup half full at all.

Twelve O'Clock High

I guess she realized
the sun would never
greet her eyes -

she would wake
with the despise
of the daily rise...

maybe she had
courage that
others wish they did -

all her tempted troubles
she successfully
hid...

The world could
see her beauty
yet could not see her soul -

the turmoil that
she watered
only made it grow...

her picture is
in black and white
no color at all -

like that
fatal April day
and her final exit call.

The Beat

Busting through the heart
the stream from the eyes -
the questions and the silence
all a bunch of lies...

headaches and the strain
hopes tried in vain -
neglect leads to pain
and nothing is the same...

ever or again
when you just can't win -
tear stained blurrs
from beginning to the end.

Vision

You just might stumble
if you keep looking back -
focus on the positive
and not what you lack...

Keep looking forward
refresh and renew -
invest in the future
and believe in you...

Even if it seems
you can never have it all -
just keep moving forward
and you will never fall.

Slippery Slopes

Waiting for the phone to ring
watch the clock tick tock -
Can't think on other things
this is the best I've got...

Hoping every moment
that this dream comes true -
praying every day that
somehow the sky shines blue...

Listening to the pitter patter
driving in the rain -
hoping all my fears and hopes
don't end in vain...

Staring out a window
in the middle of the day -
waiting for the moment
to hear what they have to say....

because dreams will ride
the wings of the wind -
seems soon as they come
there they go again...

days turn into months
then months turn into years -
will the future hold the sun
or just more rain drops here.

Success

Like a mouse to cheese
I hope they bite -
I'm trying and prying
with all my might...

Like a dolphin in a wave
I'll ride it out -
I've fought the good fight
I have no doubt...

Like an answer to a prayer
laid on my step -
I'm catching raindrops
without getting wet...

Like climbing a mountain
to reach the top -
You can't ever get there
if you stop.

Ace

My life hasn't been
a bed of roses -
but I've felt the thorns...

My eyes haven't
evaded tears -
that can pour like a storm...

The lesson is living
with the cards you're dealt -
when you are born,

Turning defeat into
a victory -
praise from scorn.

Foghorn

I'm looking for my ship
I hope it comes in -
then this life of mine
can finally begin...

the light might be a tunnel
the light might be a train -
but it just might be a beacon
if I try in vain...

Stardust from heaven
roses for the way -
hoping with such passion
all I do is pray...

try with your heart
think with your head -
and watch as your ship
comes full speed ahead.

The Point

I wish it were a smile -
that followed all the while...

it simply isn't true -
it's all that I can do...

to try to see the light -
put up that brave fight...

hope for better days -
instead of further haze...

useless wandering path -
my own internal wrath...

holds my head down -
with a haunting frown.

Race

I gotta keep my hope
believe in myself and all -
even Cinderella
got to go to the ball...

Imagination flies.
I have to grab the reigns -
The journey is quite bumpy
when you try in vain.

I'll hit the finish line.
I'm running until the end -
with them or without them
I'm choosing to win.

Free

In some strange way
I envy you -
it is all now over
and done for you...

I hate to see
that you had to go -
your smiling face
I had come to know...

Yet now it's quiet
and you will rest -
it sounds quite freeing
I must confess...

No worries or stress
just sweet sweet sleep -
Goodbye my friend
your memories I'll keep.

Applause

Larger than life
your star shined so bright -
sparkling and dancing
with that amazing inner light...

You lit up the stage
for an audience crazed -
to see such a vision
move in brand new ways...

You believed in the good
yet rode out the bad -
now you're taken too soon
from a world left so sad...

Soar and be free
from the constant infamy -
for the rest of us
you will always be...

Larger than life
a memory we'll save -
for the peace, joy and love
that you selflessly gave.

Dial Tone

I don't want anything to do -
with the whole lot of you...

and I realize it's ok -
to let myself slip away...

for when they hold the noose -
you run away when you get loose...

free yourself of the hold -
and all that you've been told...

because the truth was the lie -
and now they sit and wonder why...

silence greets their hectic call -
when you're done with it all.

Sky High

I've been climbing this moutain -
I think the top might be near...

I've gotten some feedback -
pretty much what I needed to hear...

Could a rainbow be forming -
colorful and painted wide...

Could the rain cloud be passing -
taken out with the evening tide...

Perserverance and patience -
a few tears lost along the way...

No doubt about it -
there will always be a brighter day.

Mindset

Your passion dictates
what you do -
what you believe in
is what moves you...

When what's within
is truly there -
your passion leads
your every care...

Don't ever compromise
what you know is true -
for your heart will say
what you must do.

Print

There's swine flu -
a fire might evacuate you...

Every ones living broke -
more are taking a toke...

Vicodine and pills -
overloaded with unpaid bills...

Faces stretched way to thin -
a literal constant joker grin...

Hating those who dare -
have views they don't share...

Boost those boobies up -
to make more than a buck...

I sit and watch the news...
and I agree it does suck.

Balloons

A pretty packaged bow
that I unwrapped today -
surprised in a moment
as if to say...

you just never know
what lurks around the bend -
you find a brand new route
thinking you'd found the end...

The future is a mystery
and you never can tell -
when you anticipate the worst
things might just turn out well.

The Joker

Maybe it takes skill
to wheel and deal...

Float instead of sink
use a mind to think...

Hold that head up high
and look them in the eye...

Deal the cards again
until you finally win...

Surely it takes skill
and a rock hard will.

Boxes

I wish there was
a way to escape -
I sit around
and contemplate...

A wave goodbye to
everything that's here -
a new journey
in a new year...

Memories just wiped
and blown away -
they weren't that
great anyway....

I look out the window
and just stare -
there has to be 

more out there.

Pennies

I'll hold my head high -
and let them pass by...

The feelings I have to see -
won't ever benefit me...

I'll never follow -
things that are hollow...

I've wasted too much time -
on worries that are not mine...

I can't see the sky -
without my head held high.

Sparkle

Yet, on we go
though we start slow -

and face each day
in every way -

holding tight
our precious few -

memories that ring true -
dust off the diamonds

to look new.

Smudges

Yeah, It hurts -
and hits in spurts...

gut feeling -
tear flowing times...

they always say -
that the truth hurts...

and now it applies -
to mine.

Believe to Achieve

I have big dreams
with little bitty wings -
yet I'm learning to fly...

anything can be
that I dare to see -
the limit is the sky...

With confidence I'll soar
knowing there is more -
when you're flying high.

Clean

The rain came down
like a baptism
washing away -

the dust
the dirt
the cobwebs -

cleansing
renewing
refreshing -

the air
the breath
the atmosphere...

fresh and new.

Glitter

Like a fresh
breath of spring -
and all the beauty
that it brings...

I see the
flowers bloom -
reminding me
that soon...

things will shine
and be brand new -
speckles of hope
will come through.

Silence

Very alone and quiet
torn from the inside out -
left behind to question
personal self doubt...

Words will always pass
promises never reveal -
that the truth in the end
is a painful way to feel...

consequences from illusions
belief bound to fail -
they never really mean it
no matter who they tell...

take notes in the lessons
brand it from the start -
it will always happen
and break again your heart.

Up

I'm sick of looking down
to the same old ground -
I need to look inside
to see what can be found...

The world outside can crumble
I'll just have to smile -
I'm sick of being fearful
and living in denile...

there's nothing I can do
to unfold some saving grace -
I'm just another person
who has to learn to face...

The thing that I control
is the path that I travel -
I have to journey forward
and let the future just unravel.

Buds

Green is peaking through...

like a dependable friend -
what's gone will be back again...

the sun will shine bright -
with stars beaming at night...

colorful flowers will bloom -
spring will show soon...

Then sweet summer time -
laughter and smiles will shine...

Green is peaking through.

Hesitation

You gotta chill
and keep your cool -
watch your words
don't be a fool...

noone can read
your mind but you -
what they think
doesn't make it true...

Watch your back
and be aware -
part of the thrill
can be the scare...

no matter what
it's yours to share -
keep it steady
your cross to bare.

Noone knows
your life but you -
live it the best
that you can do.

My Choice

I gave my heart to Jesus
when I was just nine years old -
I went to that small church alter
and with that my soul was sold...

and I don't want it back
no matter their verbal attack -
the more they push him out
the more I believe just that...

for what person here on earth
can really do anything -
stop a tornado in its tracks
or dissipate a hurricane...

We're all at the mercy of God
each heartbeat could be the last -
I'm placing my bet on heaven
My vote has already been cast...

for now I'm in this world
but to me it is all quite clear -
written in black and white
let he who has ears hear.

Twinkle

Ghost in the garden -
the stars above her shine bright..

ghost in the garden -
she flees free in the night...

One with the quiet -
easy with the chill...

sneaking out of sight -
is such an erotic little thrill...

ghost in the garden -
shadow dancing with the moonlight.

Finish Line

Turning a pessimist
into an optimist -

trying to see a
glass half full -

that's always been empty...

turning a negative
into a positive -

ignoring failure
expecting success -

none the less...

Trying to look out
from what's always been in -

can't stop now
it's about to begin -

start to end.

Future Unknown

What if, What if,
What if...
always in the back
of my mind...

I'm putting my
thoughts to use -
for raw and real
this time...

I'm nervous
excited and aware -
I'll have to speak out
and share...

to bring this
dream to life -
and show them all
it's there.

Stranger

If all goes well
I'll see you tomorrow -
face to face
after eighteen years...

a little worried
a lot curious -
very aware that
life has thrown curveballs...

If all goes well
I'll see you smile -
recognize your eyes
and meet my long lost friend.

Regrets

She was twenty five
and so alive
her life an open book -

accomplishments
were her goals
she had what it took -

she smiled inside
and beamed with pride
at all that she could do -

the future
held exciting times
life was fun and new -

fast forward past
lies and deceit
mistakes based on untruth -

they tore her down
then used her up
and stole her hopeful youth -

to leave her bare
and barely there
she knew they couldn't care -

they polluted her life
with insults and strife
and proved life isn't fair.

White Wonderland

The tree lit up and white
with garland up the stairs -
Bright angels looking over
my lighted Christmas cares...

The fireplace will glow
as winter whistles through -
the smell of holiday spices
to greet a year that's new...

Cheeks will be quite rosie
children will sleep so tight -
stories and imagination
will light up December nights...

The celebration of His birth
the comfort of the bliss -
a happy time for all
have a Merry Christmas!

Noodles

Spagetti -
on a Sunday night...

music soft as the
dinner aroma drifts
throughout the house...

sweet dog
by the hearth
enjoying the chill...

Streetlights
shining through a
kitchen window...

neighbors decorating
for the season
enjoying...

the purpose of work

Spagetti -
on a Sunday night...

what the paychecks really worth.

15:51

An erie feeling lingers -
the loudness made quite clear...

the anger and anticipation -
getting worse with each day here...

a strange magic hovers over -
a land with much to give...

as some wait and watch -
counting the days we have left to live.

Fish

Fish out of water
surrounded by sharks -
pompous and arrogant
where evil starts...

Lies and deceit
spread all around -
Kicking whomever
they can while they're down...

Godless and angry
and empty inside -
a fish out of water
with nowhere to hide.