It was a willing
choice to be made -
I dreamed, I hoped
I asked and I prayed...
So why does it cause
so many tears -
nightmares, anxiety
filled up with fears...
Thinking back on
familiar places -
missing a few
lovely faces...
I guess it is fate
it's too late now -
trying to adjust
to new ways somehow.
You said what you meant
and meant what you said -
You let it all out
what was inside your head...
Who cares what they thought
or if they'll ever talk to you -
what a relief that their
rude abuse is through...
It's only more closure
that needed to be done -
they aren't in your future
nor or they the ones...
You want to be around
or even ever see -
you spoke the truth and
the truth shall set you free!
The choice is up to me
half empty or half full -
scary and dangerous or
just new and very cool...
Regret leaving what I knew
or find new things to love -
worry about my future life
or live what I dreamed of...
Many chapters are written
in this book of days -
so open tunnel vision eyes
and live these better ways...
Where seagulls fly above
gorgeous white sandy shores -
while driving palm lined streets
that is what you are here for...
Live this new experience
that finally set you free -
to live the life you wanted
and where you wanted to be.
Everything I do
seems to fall apart -
I wonder why
I even start...
Just to face
disappointment again -
I wonder if
it's possible to win...
Rejection sucks
failure is hard -
my poker face
can't hide my card...
Just disappear
let everything go -
it's what I've learned
it's what I know...
I can't bloom
in toxic soil -
I bow my head
and just recoil.
Dreams really
do come true -
but there is uncertainty
with them too...
Especially when
everything is new -
and you don't know
what to do...
Except enjoy
the scenery -
the flowers, the birds
the greenery...
Taking each day
with what it gives -
Learning about the new
place you live...
This was your dream
for many years -
now wake up
wipe away your tears...
If after this time
you want to go home -
at least you allowed
yourself to roam...
Outside of your known
concrete lot -
Enjoy this time
with what you've got.
