It was exciting
flying so high -
seeing the sights
soaring through the sky...
Eyes wide open
wind blowing fast -
never thinking
it would not last...
Promises laid out
deals made in pen -
until disappointment
happened again...
The heavy door closed
slammed in the face -
no longer feasting
in the golden place...
Packing up memories
that ended too soon -
crashing to the ground
in a hot air balloon.
Reaching out
into the darkness
blinded by no light -
Swimming endlessly
in rapid currents
it is fight or flight...
Ego eccentric
from bygone days
is far from sight...
Angels smiling
at cornered demons
ready now to fight...
Broken clocks
death bells knock
deciding when it might....
End confusion
and past illusion
during the final night.
It's about to get
really real -
I'm about to see
how I really feel...
Everything is
going to be -
changed in
some compacity...
It is one thing
or another -
being a wife
and a mother...
I will always
be here too -
when love is all
you can do.
Numerous times
I believed in something
that didn't even exist...
Blindly following
fake smiles and lies
sealed with a kiss...
Words are spoken
never to be believed
awaiting the diss...
Pretzels and ice cream
the salty and sweet
sugar coated bliss.
