Candy

Numerous times
I believed in something
that didn't even exist...

Blindly following
fake smiles and lies
sealed with a kiss...

Words are spoken
never to be believed
awaiting the diss...

Pretzels and ice cream
the salty and sweet
sugar coated bliss.

Gates

With spring around the corner
will I find new life -
because I feel so down
dealing with constant strife...

I am trying to see sunshine
and appreciate each day -
But sometimes it is easier
to keep the sun far away...

I hide in my turmoil
then drown in my tears -
questioning what I have left
and how many more years...

I don't see much hope
why should I even care -
I am just existing 
sick and tired of being there. 

 

Tidal Waves

I can't save the world
I can just abide -
I couldn't even keep
my precious dog alive...

I can't be a savior
or heal the dying -
I can't prolong life
or stop all the crying...

I can only be the best
person I can be -
and believe in my heart
there is eternity...

Where all of this mess
will drift far away -
I will try my best
to live each day...

Striving to be someone
that others will see -
I care about them more
that I care about me...

and bring a smile
to those that are broken -
lifting them up with
gentle words spoken.

Deafening

Now what
I supposed it is me -
why can't I 
leave it all be... 

Maybe it's time
to kick the can -
the wrong place
is wherever I am...

It never works out
only for a time -
nothing is really
meant to be mine...

quiet as a mouse
hidden away -
closing the door
as I walk away.

Pack Up Already

Here I sit just
two weeks in -
it seems that 
I can not win...

I'm very sick and
on my own -
Yet, I'm happy
to be all alone...

This year has been
a crappy start -
my dog died
and broke my heart...

Now I sit with
some kind of  flu -
I wish I could
just make it true...

Finally move to
the salty air -
because I am over
and do not care...

to live here
even one more day  -
I need to finally
move far away.

Prayers

I stand alone
and from afar -
way away from 
where they are...

I've always been
quite intrigued -
though to them 
I mean nothing...

but I longed
to go there when -
I was young
about to begin...

My favorite trip
was the PCH -
I'd go back
I wouldn't hesitate...

My prayers
are lifted there -
Broke or rich
I truly care.

Frostbite

There's only one set of paw prints
when there should be two -
it's now been a week
since I devastatingly lost you...

The snow comes down
I wish you were here to see -
I know you'd run around
searching for squirrels under your tree...

I am so heart broken
can you hear me call your name -
I have accepted my life
will never be the same...

No one will ever
understand how I feel -
I keep waking up 
wishing this wasn't real...

My love my angel
I need you next to me -
Just like the weather
I am left cold and so icy.

Jingles

I'll head home
you won't be there -
I'll search for you
everywhere...

Buddy will whine
and look around -
but my baby
won't be found...

I will endure
another night -
missing you
tucked in tight..

So many things
we did every day -
now I cry
the night away.

Cutting Pain

Facing the day
I wish it wasn't true -
I'm about to head home
and there won't be you...

Watching you die 
is haunting my heart -
I am in disbelief 
I am torn apart...

I have to go on 
with responsibilities -
I hope that you knew
what you meant to me...

I just keep breathing
but all is so dark -
it is hard to live
with a broken heart. 

Given Up

Let the yard grow over
let the house fall apart -
let all of my surroundings
match the state of my heart...

Let the world stop turning
let my life fade away -
I don't see me wanting
to enjoy another day...

So many loves I have lost
time is only cruel -
I have nothing left in me
I have no more fuel...

I don't care to rise up
and face the week ahead -
I literally hope inside my soul
that I can now be dead.

Sasha Blue

Like a beautiful ray of happiness
she left as fast as she came -
and I know in my broken heart
life will never be the same...

I've had her since she was eight weeks old
and loved her with all of my heart -
the fact that she is already gone
is painful and has broken my heart...

How will I ever go on
as I keep on breaking down -
When I sit in our special places
it kills me she is not around...

I don't understand why this happened
why did she have to go-
there was so much life left to live
I guess I will never know...

I hope somehow she feels that I
am devasted and love her so -
Oh my baby, my precious pup
why did you have to go.  

Tear Drops to Heaven

I wish I could call you
but you are gone now too -
I am feeling hopeless
and don't know what to do...

You always made me see
sad things from your view -
you always made it better
and helped me to pull through...

I need your honest humor
and voice to make me smile -
I need to sit on the patio
and visit for a while...

I hope that she found you
and together you will be -
in that place of paradise
waiting patiently for me.

Broken Heart

While everybody lives
I'll just die away -
I don't think I can take
living another day...

No more heartache
no more tears galore -
I don't even know
what I'm on earth for...

Just one more thing
to tear me into -
I should realize
this is nothing new...

Feeling so down
feeling torn apart -
just go on and take it
I don't need a heart. 

My Girl

Can I? Will I? 
I don't know...

Why did my baby
have to go...

She held on as 
best she could -

I did all they
said I should...

Now all have is a
ball of her hair...

I hold it close because
she's not there...

There is nothing else
I could do...

My heart is broken
right into.

Torn Apart

No one will ever
feel like I do -
I don't even know
if I'll pull through...

I reach out my hand
to touch her fury face -
she was always beside me
that was her place...

How will I get through
this horrible pain -
what was the purpose
what did it gain...

She still had life
I tried in vain -
why is she gone
nothing is the same...

My heart is shattered
my stomach in knots -
my head is pounding
with depressing thoughts...

This is just horribly
terribly sad -
I'm torn apart
and yes I'm mad...

My precious girl
I'll love you till I die -
Let your ghost visit me
as I lay here and cry.

Gut Punch

While the world celebrates
I'll sit here with my tears -
It is another heartbreak
and all of my worst fears...

There is nothing I can do
as once again I see -
it is inevitable 
as she lies next to me...

The scar on my body
will last through my life -
but it is not as large
as the heartbreak of goodbye...

I pray for a miracle
I beg for health to return -
I suppose this is the price
when will I ever learn...

Love is full of pain
and only a matter of time -
until what you loved
has left you behind.