Trying to keep it
together again -
as I battle this
sadness within...
Wondering why
she fell so ill -
Questioning always
how does she feel...
Can she hold on
and end up ok -
will this illness
please go away...
I can't lose another
love of my life -
this year has been
such deathly strife...
Please get well
I love you so -
Precious Sasha
please don't go.
I never hold on
I just look back -
to those moments
that I now lack...
I visit like a ghost
just drifting bye -
no attention needed
no reason to try...
I revisit times
that are far away -
none of it matters
in the current day...
Maybe I looked up
to people that I knew -
not realizing what
I would go through...
but I was there
in a distant memory -
remembering what
will never again be.
I'm doing all I can
to keep you alive -
My only wish is
that you survive...
I miss you and
that personality -
I'm begging you
not to leave me...
Many fun times
lay out ahead -
Many warm nights
snuggled in bed...
We need you here
for the dynamic duo -
get well my baby
please don't go.
I don't belong
anywhere -
Not over here
not over there...
It is always
one more thing -
with all the chores
that my life brings...
Running around
in all directions -
with my choices
as my reflections...
Regrets always
make their way -
as I live this life
one more day.
When cut
over and over
the scar tissue heals...
It becomes
so tough
you can no longer feel...
It's almost
as if
it is void of pain...
That area
will never
feel the same...
Rip off
the band aid
and throw it away...
You never
deserved
to be hurt that way.
I literally love him
more than anything -
when I see him arrive
what joy it brings...
He's so adorable
and precious too -
he's my angel
through and through...
He brings his dog
and hangs for awhile -
he makes me laugh
he makes me smile...
the best blessing
I've ever had -
is my sweet son
and I'm so glad...
that he is here
and I'm able to say -
thank you God
for another day!
I don't want to
but I will -
because that is
the real deal...
If you want money
you play the part -
if you want love
you give your heart...
It's a transaction
no matter who -
it's up to you
what you do...
life is just
a trading game -
you learn the tricks
or you go insane...
but you must always
follow through -
because your future
depends on you.
