Finally it's happening
what do I do -
once again
I always knew...
What took so long
I do not know -
but I'm ready now
time to just go...
I have nothing
and no one at all -
looks like I finally
had the last call...
I don't know why
But I won't again -
I'll leave it as just
another friend...
because I feel nothing
for anyone -
except a few people
and my sweet son...
I definitely don't feel
any heartbreak -
it was a waste of time
living life fake.
I definitely won't
choose to believe -
or hold my breath
trying to achieve...
any type
of future there -
maybe not
anywhere...
Existing as
I have for a while -
laying low and
faking a smile...
No more insults
no more hope -
it is over as
I learn to cope.
No one can say
that I don't try -
even when
I wonder why...
I do it all
once again -
whether I lose
or even win...
Living life
on the edge -
makes me know
that I pledge...
to give it all
my very best -
win or lose
it's all a test.
