Hearts

It's quiet
and relaxing -
after so much movement...

I'm thankful
for my blessings -
and all that I have...

Nothing is more
important -
than who we love...

and who loves you...

because I do...

love you!

Dirt

It was a beautiful view,

crystal clear
relaxing,

better things ahead...

Until the dirt
was tossed,

and tossed
and tossed again...

So thick
the view was gone,

too muddy to climb
too thick to shovel,

so dirty
it wasn't worth it anymore.

Darkness

Down about
being worn out -
not much to be
happy about...

Another day
to drizzle away -
I hang my head
and quietly pray...

That this will end
very soon -
there is no hope
nor is no room...

Nothing matters
nothing is alive -
the world is gone
and all has died.

Metal

Raggedy doors
concrete floors -
blood drips down...

Dilated
then stimulated -
no one is around...

running through
is nothing new -
as I race towards the sign...

that let me know
where to go -
and find this life of mine.

Moon Dreams

Sending it 
quietly -
I wish I had
you with me...

You are so
far away -
I miss you
and yesterday...

The dance
was so surreal -
I never knew
I could feel...

I still don't 
even know -
why it all
had to go.

Pass

Welled up
from the inside -
no need to try
no need to hide...

Just floating
passing it by -
no need to think
no need to cry...

It's always been
this messed up way -
since that time
and long ago day...

What I'd give
to actually know -
why I ever even
said hello.

Country Roads

He drove country roads
with a big wide smile -
in a pick up truck
for mile after mile...

with his loving wife
right by his side -
they always enjoyed
a nice country drive...

He lived his life
as a Godly man -
as a loving husband
and a football fan...

He always had a joke
and a silly grin -
he was a happy dad
and a faithful friend...

He strummed guitar
to John Denver songs -
while those around
would laugh and sing along...

He wore a cowboy hat
with jeans and boots -
he knew how to survive
he knew how to shoot...

He loved his mom
and the Lord above -
he was an example
of strength and love..

Though it is hard
and broke hearts into -
there was nothing left
anyone could do...

wanting to go home
was his dying wish -
so we bid farewell
to his heavenly bliss.

Until we meet again...
Uncle Doug 1955-2021

Son Day

Oh dear Lord
another day -
has come along
and I must say...

I thank you Lord
as you give -
hope and strength
in this life we live...

Until that day
I'm at your feet -
and in your glory
I will weep...

As for now
I will push through -
my dear Lord
I believe in you!

Floating

It's quiet -
my thoughts are
loud...

Sometimes -
I am alone in a 
crowd...

Living life -
is usually lived
best...

When you are -
no longer concerned
with the rest...

Because really -
think it all
through...

Who in the hell -
is concerned with
you.

Shine

I'm happy
doing what I want -
I don't need to be
the thirsty debutant...

I'm free
doing what I love
I have risen
so far above...

The wannabee's
it's not where it's at -
I can be thankful
I didn't buy into that...

All those behind
are dust in my wake -
I have no time for diamonds
that are fake.

Plastic Lies

I thought it all
was everything -
turns out in the end
it was nothing...

A lot of mirrors 
and lots of lights -
to everyone's 
sought after delight...

It was a fake
a phony spill -
if walls could talk
if looks could kill...

Never believe
anything is good -
they just make you 

think you should. 

Blocked

Why am I always
too nice...

Apple spice -

While paying
the high price...

of dealing with
quite insane...

Same mundane -

I won't even
say their name...

Jealous fools -

with stupid rules
past uncool...

See ya!

Ivy

As you try
and you grow -
you'll find out
you need to know...

You can only

do your part -

with a trusting,

caring heart...

Do what you can
when you should -
trying to do 
whatever you could...

To make this world

a better place -

with a little

hope and grace.

Keys to my Heart

I so enjoyed
the sand and sea -
where I know 
I need to be...

Coming home
is bitter sweet -
one day I will 
live on the street...

that leads to a
sunny shore seabed -
seagulls and palm trees
overhead...

Where music comes
from barefoot men -
where smiles light up
from within...

I've always known
since my first time -
I need to finally 
make it mine!

Avoidance

Will I 
or won't I -
as these
days go by...

Why worry
what's true -
when there's nothing
you can do...

Maybe space
and time -
will relax
these nerves of mine.

Karen

You always had
a big bright smile -

with your quiet

and loving style...

You were smart
and logical -

helping students

all through school...

A true believer
in God above -

showing only

mercy and love...

I guess he wanted

you to be near -

though all of us

will miss you here...

I will hold close

your memory - 

spread your wings

while flying free.

Again

I have regrets
oh yes, a few -
I have things
I should do...

I have thoughts
I wish would leave -
I have beliefs
I can't believe...

Yet here I am
until I'm dead -
while in this life
I move ahead...

No matter who
is by my side -
I will live
while I'm alive...

Don't let the tears
ruin your day -
and please leave
when you can't stay.

Discard

It comes once a week
not needed and used...

It's loud and not pretty
tossed out and abused...

It's looked down upon
thrown out with the rest...

It's pushed away rudely
not considered the best...

It's taken for granted
no care if it's gone...

and so it goes freely
when it's time to move on.

Next

Yes you do know
what to do -

you know it

through and through...

It's already been

done before -

I don't want to

do it anymore...

Sitting in
and staring out -
more things you

can do without...

Don't get up

to fall back down -

your steps will be 

the final sound.

Balloons

The day the parade
went away...

It never existed
back in the day...

It was a fragment
of the mind...

That faded and
disappeared over time...

There were never
any funny clowns...

Just hidden illusions
to let you down...

Pretend it's all
been one bad dream...

Things are really never
as they seem.

Barriers

Sitting and
just looking out -
dealing with
inner self doubt...

Will there be
a brighter day -
when the storms
all go away...

Stuck in
the same routine -
that doesn't even
mean a thing...

I wonder where
this will lead -
and when the chains
will all be freed.

Bruised

Don't let
it stop you -
do what you
need to do...

Keep on going
for the win -
accidents will
happen again...

Laugh it off
heal your wound -
work will pay off
really soon...

Hold your head
cure yourself -
you are your
only help.

Books

As they went
so shall we -
so shall you
and so shall me...

All of it
just swept away -
no more night
and no more day...

Such is fleeting
such is pain -
eventually 
nothing will remain...

All is done
no more strife -
no more future
no more life.

Bound

Cry when you
need to cry -
when you have questions
ask yourself why...

Be careful who
you open up to -
most people don't 
care about you...

Leave regrets
where they should be -
then take back
your own dignity...

Nothing that's here
will last that long -
believe in yourself
and remain strong.

Dawn

You know what

you need to do -

to become a much

better you...

Only you 

hold the key -

with the choices

how to be...

Feeling better

and relieved -

no more being

falsely deceived...

From the choices

that you chose -

while learning

to live with those.

Darkness

Why oh why
do I do it again -
I wish I could go
back to when...

This wasn't even
a part of me -
now I know
and plainly see...

It shouldn't be
part of my life -
with my own hands
I twist the knife...

realizing how
I never will -
I'm choosing that
and to heal.

Meadows

Playgrounds 

only seen 

from the outside looking in...-

No chance to ride

the ferris wheel

no races to win...

Walking alone
beside the tracks

the long train rolls by...

As the laughter

drifts away

I believe the lie.

Leaves

Sitting around
feeling quite down -

No one needs to know...

All alone
inside my home -

with nowhere to go...

The silent tears

and hidden fears -

break my heart sometimes...

Those days that past
and didn't last -

get me every time.

Windows

How can it
be full -
when it's empty...

How can you 
you starve -
when there's plenty...

How can it 
be good -
when it's bad...

How can you 
smile wide -
when you're sad...

How can you
reach high -
when you're low...

How do you
face reality -
that you know.

Trophy

I saw another place
I wanted to see -
I've taken my life back
living for me...

Rid of what I
didn't like anyway -
No one to control
any part of my day...

I am so free
and can clearly see -
I'll never again be
where I don't want to be.

Blooms Are Coming

It's that time
to come to life again...

I feel so happy
like I did back then...

The weather is warm
as the sun shines bright...

The days will last
into the warm night..

Spring and summer
is life for me...

I am content
and so happy!

Delete

Let go

and let God -
isn't that what they say...

I wanna

understand -

how to believe that way...

He gave

us a brain -
expecting us to use it...

Not just

a free pass -

and then to abuse it...

So many

just don't care -
taking the easy way...

I see

what's clear to me -

while pushing them away.

My Valentine

It's snowing in Texas
big flakes coming down -
a perfect day for romance
and laying around...

I'm baking some cupcakes
and making good food -
flowers, candy and candles
are setting the mood...

Loving and cuddling 
this cold day away -
Watching funny movies
staying warm where we lay...

Enjoying the beauty
with a white window view -
fur babies close by
sharing my love with you!

Grapes

I don't feel
loved by you -
I feel hated
through and through...

Boundaries
don't abound -
Someday soon
I won't be around...

I just don't know
why I do -
I regret the moment
that I met you.

Rope

Get that shovel
to dig that hole -
once again
hide like a mole...

It is time
to start brand new -
I don't know really
what to do...

Hands tied tight
stuck together -
Insecurities
that aren't sure ever...

Hide away
like you always do -
and avoid them all
it's nothing new.

Empty

Have you ever felt
two inches tall -
like you don't even
matter at all...

Where people can't 
treat you right -
where the world is dark
without any light...

You'd run away if 
you had somewhere to go -
but there is no point
and you feel so low...

So all you do is
exist through the day -
wondering how
it ended up this way.

Prioritize

Let it all go
roll off your back -
Turn it all off
fade to black...

Don't hold on to
past irritations -
enjoy your life
take some vacations...

Dismiss the people
who bring you down -
get rid of who and what
should not be around...

Ghost when needed
hold close what is true -
follow your own path
do what's good for you.

Lost

I have those regrets
that haven't left just yet...

I wish I had not followed
advice that was hollowed...

Now it's only me
left alone to see...

How stupid I have been
and wish that I had then...

Turned and left the scene
but that's a worn out dream.