Wings

The choice is up to me
half empty or half full -
scary and dangerous or
just new and very cool...

Regret leaving what I knew
or find new things to love -
worry about my future life
or live what I dreamed of...

Many chapters are written
in this book of days -
so open tunnel vision eyes
and live these better ways...

Where seagulls fly above
gorgeous white sandy shores -
while driving palm lined streets
that is what you are here for...

Live this new experience
that finally set you free -
to live the life you wanted
and where you wanted to be.

Acceptance

Everything I do
seems to fall apart -
I wonder why
I even start...

Just to face
disappointment again -
I wonder if
it's possible to win...

Rejection sucks
failure is hard -
my poker face
can't hide my card...

Just disappear
let everything go -
it's what I've learned
it's what I know...

I can't bloom
in toxic soil -
I bow my head
and just recoil.

Blossom

Dreams really
do come true -
but there is uncertainty
with them too...

Especially when
everything is new -
and you don't know
what to do...

Except enjoy
the scenery -
the flowers, the birds
the greenery...

Taking each day
with what it gives -
Learning about the new
place you live...

This was your dream
for many years -
now wake up
wipe away your tears...

If after this time
you want to go home -
at least you allowed
yourself to roam...

Outside of your known
concrete lot -
Enjoy this time
with what you've got.

Take the Wheel

I'm scared dear Lord
please be with me -
I tremble each morning
as you can see...

I am not brave
and never have been -
what in this world
are we living in...

I pray for peace
and happiness too -
but my only option
is to believe in you...

Please stand with me
each day I rise -
until the time
I am at your side.

NE 33rd

It's been overwhelming
and scary too -
but what is now done
will never undo...

The future is now
the past in the rear -
I'm facing the truth
and all my fear...

I wanted this day
I will try to see -
this huge decision
was brought on by me...

I will check back
a few weeks in time -
and see how I feel
about what is mine.

Highways

There's a brand new life
around the bend...

As my current life 
reaches the end...

of the long ass road
I have traveled...

and now a new road
will unravel...

with a journey of cars
and family near...

I see a future
that is finally clear...

of the same O same O
I complain about...

Here I go
without a doubt...

I hope I love it
as I drive and ascend...

to my brand new life
around the bend.

Rainbows

Sometimes to gain something
you have to let something else go -
Change can be painful
More than you could ever know...

Yet as you walk down
the brand new path you travel -
you realize this has to be
so your new life can unravel...

So let yourself cry hard
and accept your salty tears -
then forge ahead knowing
a new exciting life is near.

Security

I'm scared
actually terrified -
as I pack boxes
side by side...

It's always been
a dream for me -
now that it's happening
I can see...

It will be hard
to leave it all behind -
the life I have built
the life that is mine...

Leaving my job
my beloved house sold -
should I retire here
when I am that old?

Or should I take
a leap of faith -
knowing it may be
one huge mistake...

I've never done this
ever before -
I can't imagine
locking my door...

and driving away
from all that is here -
will I regret it
that is my fear.

Swords

Sitting here
with uncertainty -
what will be
next for me...

Venom spewed
sickness near -
what you mean
is made quite clear...

Stomach knots 
through teary eyes -
humiliation
hidden cries...

No one there
to stand with you -
cutting ties
when binds are through.

Cutting Ties

Is it time 
to finally be -
cut from the ties
that always bind me...

Seeing what
I want to see -
instead of living
forcefully...

Letting go of
what is behind -
with a new daily
sun filled grind...

and never having
to ever face -
the worn-out past
I will erase.