Elevators

He was talented

worldly and smart - 
leaving his impact
in my mind and heart...

Advanced degrees
the corporate ladder -

When money was all

that really mattered...

but I saw sweetness
and showered beauty -
no one will know

any of it but me...

He survived so much
and lived out loud -
I'm sure your family

is very proud...

I think of you
a lot lately -
I hope you are
resting and free.

Bye

Don't allow disrespect
for no reason -
Realize everything
has its season...

Why allow it 
to happen again -
Only your choices
can make it end...

This may be
the next step -
because I'm done
with all of it...

I deserve a
smile on my face -
sometimes history
must be erased.

Droplets and Puddles

The rain is coming down
in my temporary home -
down in Corpus Christi
I wish it were my own...

Where the birds chirp happily
and the ocean gives its waves -
while my dogs are running restlessly
trying to behave...

We are all a bit sunburnt
I really want to stay -
Though I know in the morning
we will have to go away...

but for now I will savor
the pretty pool in my view -
and appreciate this trip
trying not to feel so blue.

Timelines

It's sooner than you think
when you won't anymore -
it won't be much longer
you walk through a new door...

This will all be
Just a distant memory -
with new things in store
waiting for me...

What annoys you now
will never again -
just like times before 
this time will end...

So suck it up while
you roll your eyes -
and look forward to
these future goodbyes. 

Locket

I don't want to
but I have to let you go -
the pain that this causes me
is more than you could know...

My heart still loves you
but I can't cry anymore -
I can't change the outcome
so what am I trying for...

I will still talk to you
and pray to meet you soon -
especially when I'm alone
tucked up safely in my room...

I think you would want me
to go and live happily -
as I keep your memory near 
within my heart safely.

Move?

Well I made it
another year -
thanks to God
I am still here...

Great things 
are up ahead -
I wouldn't live them
if I were dead...

So thank you God
for this birthday -
I get really sad 
but not today...

I will give 
my thanks to you -
because it's you
who got me through...

many trials
and turbulent times -
but those are now
left far behind...

I see the beach
with a new zip code -
Come on God
I'm ready for the road. 

Temporary

Tick Tock
I watch the clock -
knowing this isn't
all I've got...

I see the sun
smiling on me -
where I am gone
and I am free...

I'll never see you
ever again -
I can not wait
until then...

For now I will
stay far away -
waiting until
that excellent day.

Locks

It cuts like a knife
yet numbs the pain -
it's all in a past
I won't live again...

So many regrets
just useless sighs -
it is a long way
from the last goodbyes...

Pointless searching
answers here and there -
though life has changed
everywhere...

The future's ahead
the past is behind -
keep searching for any
happiness to find.

 

Bye

I push it down
I pray it away -
even though
It shows up each day...

Am I wasting
what time is left -
what is given
and what is theft...

because I don't
feel it anymore -
I don't even know
what I'm here for...

I think it finally
reached the end -
I won't go through
this again.

Paths

It's ok to
change your mind -
things change
through time...

What once was
completely fun -
now seems so
over and done...

Maybe it's age
but I see -
nothing matters
much to me...

Except what
I keep near -
it's getting smaller
with each year...

So live these days
and try to smile -
we are only here
for a while.

Helium

It was exciting
flying so high -
seeing the sights
soaring through the sky...

Eyes wide open
wind blowing fast -
never thinking
it would not last...

Promises laid out
deals made in pen -
until disappointment
happened again...

The heavy door closed
slammed in the face -
no longer feasting
in the golden place...

Packing up memories
that ended too soon -
crashing to the ground
in a hot air balloon.

Pierced

Reaching out 
into the darkness
blinded by no light -

Swimming endlessly
in rapid currents
it is fight or flight...

Ego eccentric
from bygone days
is far from sight...

Angels smiling
at cornered demons
ready now to fight...

Broken clocks
death bells knock
deciding when it might....

End confusion
and past illusion
during the final night.