These goals set
within my mind
include only me...
They are not meant
for anyone else
to decide or see...
I put the pressure
where it belongs
that only I know...
Accomplishing
my intentions
watching myself grow...
My heads held high
no time to stop
for negativity...
I am too busy
on my path
to create a better me.
She was here
this time last year -
now she's gone
and it is clear...
We will never
laugh again -
I don't know how
and don't know when...
This bond we have
could ever sever -
because our bond
goes on forever...
Laughter, tears
and in between -
the things we did
and things we've seen...
Makes me miss you
that much more -
You are loved
that is for sure!
You are different
you matter to me -
I don't know how
to make you see...
That I care what
becomes of you -
and I will do
what you need me to...
I'm there for you
you're there for me -
we are soulmates
for eternity...
Nothing can break
our strange little bond -
even if one of us
is dead and gone...
We had the time
of our lives together -
and you will be
in my heart forever.
I'll live my life without you
just as I did before -
soon I'll grow accustom
to being single and unsure...
You were a special segment
but now it's torn away -
I must put the pieces back
and live now day by day...
Another endless heartache
another teardrop gone -
but I know I've got the strength
I know I can go on...
Your love I'll soon forget
I'll bury it so deep -
it will never haunt me
it I will not keep...
So now it all has ended
the heaven and the hell -
the best to both our futures
and all that time will tell.
Music is like
a time machine -
it takes you back
in a daydream...
All of the sudden
you're ten again -
remembering exactly
what happened then...
You see the moment
you feel the air -
you're alive again
as you were there...
Drifting back
to that moment in time -
as the music fills up
you soul and mind.
I will just keep it
all inside -
and find my trusty
hole to hide...
because I know
in reality -
it is all left
up to me...
Silence echos
in my ears -
to care less evens
out my fears...
because I've learned
it is not there -
and I've learned
to never care.
I think of you
frequently -
do you ever
think of me...
Deep inside
I hope you know -
it was hard
to watch you go...
You made me laugh
and made me cry -
when we said
the final goodbye...
But just because
it wasn't me -
I truly hope
you are happy.
I do admit
it gives me pause -
seeing the scary
turbulent cause...
sends me in a
different direction -
with a lot of
tough reflection...
If it is not
meant to be there -
then I wonder
exactly where...
I should be
or I should go -
and how I will
ever know?
The curtains close
the clock is stopped -
the wood floor creaks
during the walk...
Demons hover
angels soar high -
the key turns quietly
as they die...
Sharp shards cut
the bloody flow -
secrets buried
no one will know...
history hides
beneath the dirt -
as the haunted live
walking the earth.
Save it for
the ride home -
save it until
you are alone...
You can let it
all out then -
by yourself
at least till ten...
Where you can
hide in privacy -
and let the tears
all flow freely.
Tears rim my eyes
as I feel defeated -
so many times
I have repeated...
Choices that kill
and clog my mind -
with people who are
rude and unkind...
I feel mistakes
have ruined my hope -
I find it difficult
just to cope...
I don't hold belief
in anything here -
as I watch all
happiness disappear.
Things are about to get
completely real -
I'm about to express
exactly how I feel...
What I will put up with
what I won't do -
what I have decided
I will pursue...
I have one shot
and this is my time -
I will dictate
what will be mine...
I don't need anyone
ever at all -
my life, my choices
and my call.
Well here it is
it's been a year -
I'm kind of shocked
that I'm still here...
There is good
and there is bad -
I suppose it's better
than what I had...
Some things loom
in front of me -
All I can do
is wait and see...
if the dream
becomes reality -
and that vision
comes to be.
