I stand alone
and from afar -
way away from
where they are...
I've always been
quite intrigued -
though to them
I mean nothing...
but I longed
to go there when -
I was young
about to begin...
My favorite trip
was the PCH -
I'd go back
I wouldn't hesitate...
My prayers
are lifted there -
Broke or rich
I truly care.
There's only one set of paw prints
when there should be two -
it's now been a week
since I devastatingly lost you...
The snow comes down
I wish you were here to see -
I know you'd run around
searching for squirrels under your tree...
I am so heart broken
can you hear me call your name -
I have accepted my life
will never be the same...
No one will ever
understand how I feel -
I keep waking up
wishing this wasn't real...
My love my angel
I need you next to me -
Just like the weather
I am left cold and so icy.
I'll head home
you won't be there -
I'll search for you
everywhere...
Buddy will whine
and look around -
but my baby
won't be found...
I will endure
another night -
missing you
tucked in tight..
So many things
we did every day -
now I sit and cry
the night away.
Facing the day
I wish it wasn't true -
I'm about to head home
and there won't be you...
Watching you die
is haunting my heart -
I am in disbelief
I am torn apart...
I have to go on
with responsibilities -
I hope that you knew
what you meant to me...
I just keep breathing
but all is so dark -
it is hard to live
with a broken heart.
Let the yard grow over
let the house fall apart -
let all of my surroundings
match the state of my heart...
Let the world stop turning
let my life fade away -
I don't see me wanting
to enjoy another day...
So many loves I have lost
time is only cruel -
I have nothing left in me
I have no more fuel...
I don't care to rise up
and face the week ahead -
I literally hope inside my soul
that I can now be dead.
Like a beautiful ray of happiness
she left as fast as she came -
and I know in my broken heart
life will never be the same...
I've had her since she was six weeks old
and loved her with all of my heart -
the fact that she is already gone
is painful and has broken my heart...
How will I ever go on
as I keep on breaking down -
When I sit in our special places
it kills me she is not around...
I don't understand why this happened
why did she have to go-
there was so much life left to live
I guess I will never know...
I hope somehow she feels that I
am devasted and love her so -
Oh my baby, my precious pup
why did you have to go.
I wish I could call you
but you are gone now too -
I am feeling hopeless
and don't know what to do...
You always made me see
sad things from your view -
you always made it better
and helped me to pull through...
I need your honest humor
and voice to make me smile -
I need to sit on the patio
and visit for a while...
I hope that she found you
and together you will be -
in that place of paradise
waiting patiently for me.
While everybody lives
I'll just die away -
I don't think I can take
living another day...
No more heartache
no more tears galore -
I don't even know
what I'm on earth for...
Just one more thing
to tear me into -
I should realize
this is nothing new...
Feeling so down
feeling torn apart -
just go on and take it
I don't need a heart.
Can I? Will I?
I don't know...
Why did my baby
have to go...
She held on as
best she could -
I did all they
said I should...
Now all have is a
ball of her hair...
I hold it close because
she's not there...
There is nothing else
I could do...
My heart is broken
right into.
No one will ever
feel like I do -
I don't even know
if I'll pull through...
I reach out my hand
to touch her fury face -
she was always beside me
that was her place...
How will I get through
this horrible pain -
what was the purpose
what did it gain...
She still had life
I tried in vain -
why is she gone
nothing is the same...
My heart is shattered
my stomach in knots -
my head is pounding
with depressing thoughts...
This is just horribly
terribly sad -
I'm torn apart
and yes I'm mad...
My precious girl
I'll love you till I die -
Let your ghost visit me
as I lay here and cry.
While the world celebrates
I'll sit here with my tears -
It is another heartbreak
and all of my worst fears...
There is nothing I can do
as once again I see -
it is inevitable
as she lies next to me...
The scar on my body
will last through my life -
but it is not as large
as the heartbreak of goodbye...
I pray for a miracle
I beg for health to return -
I suppose this is the price
when will I ever learn...
Love is full of pain
and only a matter of time -
until what you loved
has left you behind.
Trying to keep it
together again -
as I battle this
sadness within...
Wondering why
she fell so ill -
Questioning always
how does she feel...
Can she hold on
and end up ok -
will this illness
please go away...
I can't lose another
love of my life -
this year has been
such deathly strife...
Please get well
I love you so -
Precious Sasha
please don't go.
I never hold on
I just look back -
to those moments
that I now lack...
I visit like a ghost
just drifting bye -
no attention needed
no reason to try...
I revisit times
that are far away -
none of it matters
in the current day...
Maybe I looked up
to people that I knew -
not realizing what
I would go through...
but I was there
in a distant memory -
remembering what
will never again be.
