That was actually
really fun -
maybe the time
has now begun...
Me in the free
dancing in the wind -
I can't wait
to do it again...
Totally new
and so very nice -
some famous people
some drinks on ice...
A bad ass uber
a very clean town -
only friendly people
hanging around...
I'm joining the gym
I'm driving the streets -
I met who
I wanted to meet...
I think I'm finally
falling in love -
and living what
I dreamed of.
It was a willing
choice to be made -
I dreamed, I hoped
I asked and I prayed...
So why does it cause
so many tears -
nightmares, anxiety
filled up with fears...
Thinking back on
familiar places -
missing a few
lovely faces...
I guess it is fate
it's too late now -
trying to adjust
to new ways somehow.
You said what you meant
and meant what you said -
You let it all out
what was inside your head...
Who cares what they thought
or if they'll ever talk to you -
what a relief that their
rude abuse is through...
It's only more closure
that needed to be done -
they aren't in your future
nor or they the ones...
You want to be around
or even ever see -
you spoke the truth and
the truth shall set you free!
The choice is up to me
half empty or half full -
scary and dangerous or
just new and very cool...
Regret leaving what I knew
or find new things to love -
worry about my future life
or live what I dreamed of...
Many chapters are written
in this book of days -
so open tunnel vision eyes
and live these better ways...
Where seagulls fly above
gorgeous white sandy shores -
while driving palm lined streets
that is what you are here for...
Live this new experience
that finally set you free -
to live the life you wanted
and where you wanted to be.
Everything I do
seems to fall apart -
I wonder why
I even start...
Just to face
disappointment again -
I wonder if
it's possible to win...
Rejection sucks
failure is hard -
my poker face
can't hide my card...
Just disappear
let everything go -
it's what I've learned
it's what I know...
I can't bloom
in toxic soil -
I bow my head
and just recoil.
Dreams really
do come true -
but there is uncertainty
with them too...
Especially when
everything is new -
and you don't know
what to do...
Except enjoy
the scenery -
the flowers, the birds
the greenery...
Taking each day
with what it gives -
Learning about the new
place you live...
This was your dream
for many years -
now wake up
wipe away your tears...
If after this time
you want to go home -
at least you allowed
yourself to roam...
Outside of your known
concrete lot -
Enjoy this time
with what you've got.
I'm scared dear Lord
please be with me -
I tremble each morning
as you can see...
I am not brave
and never have been -
what in this world
are we living in...
I pray for peace
and happiness too -
but my only option
is to believe in you...
Please stand with me
each day I rise -
until the time
I am at your side.
It's been overwhelming
and scary too -
but what is now done
will never undo...
The future is now
the past in the rear -
I'm facing the truth
and all my fear...
I wanted this day
I will try to see -
this huge decision
was brought on by me...
I will check back
a few weeks in time -
and see how I feel
about what is mine.
There's a brand new life
around the bend...
As my current life
reaches the end...
of the long ass road
I have traveled...
and now a new road
will unravel...
with a journey of cars
and family near...
I see a future
that is finally clear...
of the same O same O
I complain about...
Here I go
without a doubt...
I hope I love it
as I drive and ascend...
to my brand new life
around the bend.
Sometimes to gain something
you have to let something else go -
Change can be painful
More than you could ever know...
Yet as you walk down
the brand new path you travel -
you realize this has to be
so your new life can unravel...
So let yourself cry hard
and accept your salty tears -
then forge ahead knowing
a new exciting life is near.
